“Many men go fishing all of their lives without knowing that it is not fish they are after.”Henry David Thoreau Having fished since I was 3 years old, I think I get this. My Mother's side of the family were hunters and freshwater fisherman. On my Father's side, I have sailors and saltwater fishermen. I learned about freshwater fishing at an early age from my … [Read more...] about What am I Really Doing?
This whole sleeping thing has kept me up at night. It’s not clear exactly when my sleep became disrupted, but I am nowhere near close to getting a full night’s sleep. And it has been almost a year. The night goes something like this: 10 PM – head to bed and play a few games of solitaire on my I-pad.10:15 – 10:45 close laptop. Lights are already off.Fall asleep fairly … [Read more...] about Why am I sleepless again?
I have been struggling with how to share what my life has been like for the past four weeks. There are friends, relatives, and business associates that I want to tell. My dilemma is how to tell them, how much to tell them when to tell them. Is my need to tell them a way to justify my behavior? I’m telling myself it is a noble thing to do, to alert others who may have these … [Read more...] about How do I tell people I have depression? Or should I?
This is not what I do. I have made a conscious effort, day after day, week after week, month after month not to call myself names. I have used positive self-talk and steered clear of labeling myself in any way that isn’t positive and helpful. So why in the past 24 hours have I caught myself doing it? Twice. This is new and is irritating, foolish, disappointing, and … [Read more...] about Why am I labeling myself?
Today I am thinking I can work again. Not that I haven’t been, but the pace and intensity I feel just ratcheted up a notch. This is only the second day since I was in the hospital for depression that I have felt like I could really get back into my business. The crazy thing is I am not reinventing the wheel. Everything I outlined to start doing again in my business this … [Read more...] about Am I seeing the future clearly?