Them – “How’s it going today?“ Me – “I’m darn glad to be here.” Them – “Are you ok? This is work.” Them – “This is a paycheck. This is what I do to survive. Are you sure you heard the question?” Them – Why would you be happy to be at work? Two-thirds of…
Do I really have an addiction?
Occasionally, I am really surprised. My motto is “I love getting up in the morning, because I learn something new every day.” Often, it is something small that I learn. A shortcut to the store. A new way to fold shirts, a new band that I had not heard before. But sometimes, what I learn…
10 things I just cannot do
Let me say right up front that these are things I am working on. Things I would like to do, things that I see value in, but depression does not. This is creating conflict in my head and heart about my need to address these things. My List Relax – Just sitting in the morning…
With your encouragement, I have written 100 blog posts
That translates into over 83,000 words about my journey with depression. And the journey is just getting started. Journaling has been one of my self-care activities. Writing about what I am feeling and thinking has been a way for me to work through my depression and “get in touch with my feelings.” This is still…
After reading this, I’m not sure I have Concealed Depression
I was sure it was Concealed Depression. After all, I had hidden it for 43 years before finally facing it. I am just now wrapping my arms around the idea that I have a mental illness, and then I read an article that may change what I call it. That should be exciting. I am…
Once upon a time, I never even thought about it.
My life at the moment is still somewhat of a whirlwind. I am adjusting to being back into the workforce after 14 months of retirement. And while I have slowed my side business, word of mouth is still producing leads that I feel obligated to accept. This squeezes my time at home into smaller and…
Did I take my Prozac today?
I woke up a little early and went to the bathroom. Then I went to the kitchen and got a pot of coffee started. The first person up in our household makes 12 cups, the maximum our coffee maker can produce. And the great thing about this coffee maker is that it has an insulated…
Do you ever just want to stop?
I’ve been on the go my entire life. I fight colds and go to work. I fight aches and pains and continue to do my daily routine. I don’t stop for my birthday or even most holidays. There is always something that needs to be done. Once I was repairing the chimney on my house….
Why did I make that decision?
Making decisions is part of life. “Do I brush my teeth this morning?” “Yes, I will.” “Will I take out the trash before going to work?” “No, I will get it tonight when I get home.” We make hundreds of these simple choices every day. Most of them are routine and require only the most…
Is this really how I am seen?
Here are quotes I wrote down from my recent therapy session that included my key supporters. Their observations and view of me include: “Inconsistency of saying one thing and doing another” “Actions build untrust” “Doesn’t have a consistent story” “It’s hard for me to find firm ground to stand on, too trust” Whether or not…
