Covid and the pandemic suck. Living 12 hours away, the first ten months of my grandson’s life, we only saw him on zoom. Finally, the stars aligned, the vaccines were all administered, and we traveled to see him. Now he is coming here. It is only a long weekend, but I am so ready to spend time with him again. He has gone from infant to toddler in 4 months. Even on zoom, … [Read more...] about I Cannot Wait to See my Grandson
For some reason, I envisioned a breakthrough session last night. By the end of the zoom meeting, I thought all my cares would be lifted and I would have found a nugget of truth I could work with until the next session. My anticipation of our first meeting under the new framework was hard to contain. After all, we had done some great work together. It was February 5th when … [Read more...] about Getting Back to Therapy Wasn’t What I Expected
Daily I repeat to myself, “I have depression, depression does not have me.” And I have been fortunate to have help reinforcing that idea. From medicine management, WRAP, SMART Recovery, the Change Triangle, and more, I have tools. And I have peer support. All of this has helped me gain a clearer perspective on depression and how it has altered the trajectory of my … [Read more...] about Depression is Not My Fault, But What About Where My Decisions Lead Me?
That calm, clear feeling arrived two days ago. Even having the oven stop working after I used the auto-clean feature hasn’t dulled my sense of “I’m Ok.” I am enjoying this feeling. Understanding that this will not last forever, I am soaking it in. And the sense of balance is still with me today, as I start day three. Having balance does not make me feel special. I am not … [Read more...] about Is My Life With Depression Really in Balance?
At least that is how it feels today. Today I had a 3-month update with my psychiatrist who is handling my depression medicine. When asked how I was doing, I could confidently say, “I am doing very well.” And I mean it. We agreed I would stay on 300 grams of Wellbutrin XL and that I would see her in 4 months this time. I left feeling good. Yet on the ride home, I admitted … [Read more...] about Blog Post #400 – Why My Depression’s Aftermath Never Ends