That is a very sobering thought. Six weeks after getting out of the hospital, I finally contacted my mentor. He had been checking the obituaries. And while I had stayed in touch with another person for over two years, I feel off the grid last summer and stopped responding to her emails. I had the…
Category: self care
I’m early for my therapy appointment
I am always early. If I am on time, I feel like I am late. Waiting in the parking lot for my therapist to arrive, I have scrolled through more Facebook than I usually do in a week. I had to decide whether to drive home from work just long enough to turn around and…
With depression in full bloom, I was a mess last year.
I guess in many ways I still am. I am learning how to live with depression after avoiding facing it for over 43+ years. I had a whole system in place to protect myself from the truth. I lived through at least four major episodes before winding up in the hospital a year ago. That…
Self-isolation is so isolating
I am forgetting how much I enjoy in-person interaction. This past weekend had been booked as a bridal shower in a northern state. We were to drive up Friday, attend the bridal shower on Saturday, visit Sunday and return home on Monday. This was planned months before Covid 19 made its entrance on the world…
A day working in the yard has helped me dust the cobwebs out of my mind.
Today, it almost seems like everything is right with the world. I got to spend the morning with my wife. First hanging out in the living room, talking about what to do with the day. Then doing some grocery shopping, picking up a prescription all the while maintaining “social distancing.” Then I focused on mowing…
Which new normal? MDD or Covid19?
I am still learning to live with major depressive disorder. Now I am also learning to live surrounded by the coronavirus. I am troubled more than a little by the double whammy. Yet, my plight, if it is a plight, seems increasingly minor, compared to others. Obviously, dying is not the desired outcome for anyone….
“Show me the money”
White House, Senate reach historic $2 trillion stimulus deal amid growing coronavirus fears Read the article here Losing your job because of something you did is one thing. Having your job taken away because of a global pandemic is much harder to understand. Your responsibilities do not change because you are not bringing home a…
Even non-essential citizens need self-care
Gov. Northam forcing certain non-essential businesses in Virginia to close Read the article here It is easy to get caught up in the Corona Virus Pandemic. The uncertainty it is causing has jolted the financial markets, caused people to horde toilet paper and Ramen Noodles and put most people on edge. Everyone is learning two…
Is sheltering in place the answer?
A global pandemic makes my depression seem like small potatoes. I have fought this for over 43 years, and the last bout finally landed me in the hospital. Yet, depression and I have not parted ways. We still share the same space. My cranium is its cranium, my frontal cortex is its frontal cortex. It’s…
And just like that, it is gone!
Auto-recovery is an urban legend. Well, at least for me today it is. Having finished a page and a half of my latest blog post, I pissed off my laptop somehow and Word closed. Historically, when I re-open Word, there is a list of auto-recovery documents on the left side of the screen. From there,…
