As I make progress and hash out some of the underlying issues that have caused my depression to intensify at different times in my life, I am beginning to see the value of visualizing my new future. I asked for professional medical attention 5 months ago because I has lost my focus. I could NOT…
Category: WRAP (Wellness Recovery Action Plan)
Why did I think that? I thought I was getting better.
Why do I suddenly feel the need to explain myself? I am almost five months out from my hospital stay for depression. That is almost five months of living with depression, of saying the word depression out loud, and keeping depression out in the open where I can see it. As I wrote the sentence…
I cannot get it back
I am so angry this morning. I cannot believe some of the decisions I have made in the past 43 years. It is infuriating to think that I have thrown away different opportunities that would have made significant changes in my life. My plan as I write this is to be mad at depression for…
I want to say thank you for yesterday.
Focusing on the one thing I could control, I decided to look at my attitude towards the weekend. On Friday, I had decided to understand how I needed to think if I was going to relax and enjoy the day. It was clear that I normally would be stressed out about not doing things I…
Can you see the obvious?
Who would think you would need spell check for a four-word truck sign? On my way to work yesterday, I ended up behind a tandem dump truck. No big deal, except I would rather be behind a vehicle I can see over, around or through. This helps me feel more confident as I drive. But…
Maybe the change in barometric pressure has me feeling down
I cannot put my finger on it. Today has been blah. Not overly bad, not overly good, just blah. My to-do list was long. The self-care part for me was to be outside, on the front porch, drinking my coffee, no cell phone, no laptop, just me and nature. That part of the day was…
My new idea in my relationship with depression
Recently, I was up against the wall. 100 or so days ago, I was sure that I had no way forward; I could not even see that there was a way. It was pitch black, or worse, colorless, and my life was emotionless, too. I was going through the motions, not appreciating or enjoying anything….
New thinking is helping me achieve balance in my life
How much time do you spend on self-care? I have been asked that question now for months. I have been jumping and running from one thing to another in my quest to learn all I can about depression. While this has been hugely helpful in understanding and facing depression, it has not left much time…
Why can’t he count? – My Road Rage continues
This frustration is getting to be a thing with me. I have written about it twice before. I have thought about it and put it through my WRAP plan checklist to see if I could figure out why I am feeling frustrated while driving. As I’ve said, I had gotten over this once before. And…
I found a new place to be SMART
Now that I am back in the workforce, my schedule doesn’t allow me the flexibility to go to support group meetings whenever I want. Before starting back to a “day job,” I was going to three different support group meetings each week held on three different days. There is the SMART group, focusing on Self-management…
