I know I should be thankful. I am alive, I am in good health, and my depression is not pushing me up against the wall. But boy do I feel rushed. Or maybe it’s a sense of urgency to get things done. It could be I am making a big deal out of what I…
Category: WRAP (Wellness Recovery Action Plan)
Three things I do to not be S.A.D. when I fall back
The days are getting shorter, that is clear. The shortest day of the year will be here in less than two months. Darkness comes in the mid-Atlantic states by 6 PM now, and the days are still getting shorter. In early summer, it wasn’t getting dark until almost 9 PM. What a difference. Seasonal Affective…
I’m feeling partly cloudy this morning. Is there a storm ahead?
It’s not all or nothing. Feeling a little dull this morning doesn’t mean the end of the world s coming. In fact, just getting up has helped with the cloudiness. And then pouring a mug of black coffee and heading out to the front porch has helped, too. Maybe my cloudiness is related to the…
How can you be in control and have depression?
Being in control is powerful. Feeling helpless, not having control can be debilitating and unhealthy. I have been on both sides of the aisle lately. Sometimes I have felt in control and at other times have allowed myself to feel helpless, to be the victim in the situation. Linking my control issues to depression has…
Flashback Friday – Was I really like this?
I read a few of my early blog posts this morning. Some of them I wrote just days after getting out of the hospital. There is a lot of uncertainty in these early posts. I am feeling my way towards something, but I wasn’t sure what it was. Check out this post I wrote 3…
I didn’t time travel this past weekend
I never gave much importance to living in the moment. My life has been much more about time travel. My comfort zone is the future. The planning and anticipating of future events have been my go-to place. There everything is perfect. Or sometimes not, if I am catastrophizing about some future event that may or…
Are these really early warning signs?
The last few weeks are catching up with me. Between working 7 days in a row, then flying to Chicago, coming back and working another 7 in a row, I am slowing down just a little bit. For example, my legs felt it when we walked the dog yesterday evening. Our property has many hills…
Is this a new trigger signaling a relapse or am I just messy?
I have never seen it so cluttered. A pile here, a stack there, each item placed in its final resting place with intention. This is not the work of a vandal “tossing the place looking for anything of value,” this is the work of someone with a plan. A plan with the best of intentions,…
It wasn’t me this time – Road Rage Part IIII
The car was close behind me for a while. In front of me was a tractor trailer. The road is two-lane, but it has a center line to alert drivers when it is ok to pass and when drivers should refrain from passing. For the past few miles, the road has been wiggly and there…
101 ideal activities for my new life with depression
As I make progress and hash out some of the underlying issues that have caused my depression to intensify at different times in my life, I am beginning to see the value of visualizing my new future. I asked for professional medical attention 5 months ago because I has lost my focus. I could NOT…
