There should not be pressure associated with a holiday, yet here I am, stressing about the day. Labor Day comes once a year in the US and today is the day. The origins of the occasion were once clearer than they are today. Somehow Memorial Day and the 4th of July are easier to understand. I do know that Labor Day is a time to honor workers. A quick Google search reveals the … [Read more...] about Another Holiday – Another Chance to Change?
Guilt and Shame
Photo by Avi Werde on Unsplash I feel guilty for not going to the gym this morning. Checking my app, I can see I have gone 4 out of 5 days this week. And I have been up since 6 AM this morning. When I got up, I had every intention of getting to the gym before preparing for work. I know it’s Saturday, but retail demands a non 9 to 5, Monday to Friday schedule. So, I am … [Read more...] about Having Coffee on The Porch and Not Going to The Gym Is My Self-care Today
Or as I am surmising, there is no finish line. But for certain activities, or events, there is a conclusion. Then why is it I feel as if it is never ending, and I am always one step from completing the challenge? Days turn into nights. The day ends and the night begins. This is very basic stuff. So why am I having trouble visualizing me crossing the finish line for my own … [Read more...] about Is My Depression Keeping Me from The Finish Line?
It’s been months since I’ve been able to work from the front porch. I know it’s my fault for not making the decision sooner. After all, my old laptop has been non-responsive for months. Yet every time I would start to research new laptops, I would hear a voice in my head. And it would remind me that I still have a PC in my home office that I can use. So why am I thinking … [Read more...] about My Depression Let Me Buy a New Computer
I am worried that I don’t feel different today. It seems like I should be more relaxed and content. I got to spend a long weekend with my son and my new daughter-in-law. They drove over 6 hours to be here for the Memorial Day holiday. And we hosted a bonfire on Saturday with several family members from the surrounding area joining us. We grilled, made smores, and then at … [Read more...] about Memorial Day Holiday Is Over, Now What?