“Sir, did you know you were going 62 in a 35 MPH zone? That’s got to be reckless driving, I thought to myself. What I said back to the officer was, “No.” He asked if I had seen the posted signs for the work zone? I said I wasn’t paying attention. He said “you didn’t…
Category: Unhelpful thinking
My 300th Post Sharing My Life with Depression
Funny, I do not see my 300th blog post as a time of celebration. Hitting my 100th and 200th blog posts, I made it into a celebration of life; my life. I was excited to still be alive, to have a better sense of the way forward. With my 100th blog post, I was grateful…
I Asked My Doctor 6 Questions About My MDD Symptoms
What he told me was life changing. Getting out of bed each morning has been drama. Most days, I launch an internal dialogue with myself, which ends in my feeling guilty about staying in bed. Then at some point, a sound triggers my “fight or flight” response, and I leap out of bed. This scenario…
If I Only Had 10 Days to Live
A year ago, my focus was on Major Depressive Disorder. Would I figure it out? Was there life for me going forward? Could I see past the wall that I was up against? Although at that moment, I could not see the big picture, somewhere in my anatomy, I knew I would make it. Remember,…
Inconceivable! A Freeze Warning in Central Virginia in Mid-May
Is that why the unexpected is unexpected? Dealing with this unexpected change in temperature reminds me that life is not straight-forward. Yet here I am figuring out how to get all my geraniums and Boston ferns inside. And the climbing Mandevilla vine is already in a huge planter on the porch with a trellis attached…
What is Depression and Why Do I Have It?
Beginning my second year with Major Depressive Disorder, I am still not leading a balanced life. Now things are certainly much, much better than they were a year ago. I have hope and can see a way forward. Last year, I was up against the wall and saw NO way forward. It was all abyss….
I’m Spinning All Over the Place Today
I really had in mind slowing down and thinking more about my attitude. The chance to look at my attitude towards recent events is a way to understand how I am reacting to them. Or at least, how I am framing my response to what is happening around me. While I am still learning my…
What Happened to the Good Old Days?
I understand I have depression and the world is experiencing a pandemic. My new normal is to live a balanced life with depression. I expected up days and down days, that is life even without depression. The only thing that stays the same is that nothing stays the same. But that thinking can be countered…
People Are Getting Frustrated
Our resolve as a nation to beat COVID-19 is wavering. Not that we do not want it to happen, but we are growing weary of the cost. Getting back to work is on more people’s minds than it was even a week ago. A DC area poll has been conducted weekly since we got the…
Did I Miss My Anniversary?
No, I did not miss my wedding anniversary. I know that date and will be forever grateful for it. As we approach 40 years of marriage, there is so much to be thankful for. But that is not for a few more months. We have marked this occasion together every year since our first. But…
