After my days on 5 East, I was certain depression would not be in charge of my attitude ever again. Well, that feeling came to me months after my 4 days there. Being alone with the staff, I was still very much up against the wall, and the fact that I had finally taken a different action and gotten a different response was still sinking in. Leading a balanced life with … [Read more...] about My Attitude Is Being Controlled By Depression
Or as I am surmising, there is no finish line. But for certain activities, or events, there is a conclusion. Then why is it I feel as if it is never ending, and I am always one step from completing the challenge? Days turn into nights. The day ends and the night begins. This is very basic stuff. So why am I having trouble visualizing me crossing the finish line for my own … [Read more...] about Is My Depression Keeping Me from The Finish Line?
If I weren't still dragging around the fear of what they might say, I would openly use my 500th blog post to email this letter to my friends and family. Dear Friend, I suffer from depression. (1) My life with depression started before I was 19, and depression has been a factor in most of my life’s decisions, both small and large. I do not say this to excuse my … [Read more...] about Stigma Has Kept Me From “Coming Out” With My Depression
I’m not sure why this popped into my head, but it is a fact. Facts are what I live by. I would have made a fine reporter because I can give you the facts of any situation in which I am involved. Dates, and times, I can recount exactly what was said, what was done, and by whom. Just don’t ask me to tell you how I feel about it. Allowing myself to feel, think about my … [Read more...] about It’s a Fact There Are Only 188 More Shopping Days Until Christmas
I am worried that I don’t feel different today. It seems like I should be more relaxed and content. I got to spend a long weekend with my son and my new daughter-in-law. They drove over 6 hours to be here for the Memorial Day holiday. And we hosted a bonfire on Saturday with several family members from the surrounding area joining us. We grilled, made smores, and then at … [Read more...] about Memorial Day Holiday Is Over, Now What?