What he told me was life changing. Getting out of bed each morning has been drama. Most days, I launch an internal dialogue with myself, which ends in my feeling guilty about staying in bed. Then at some point, a sound triggers my “fight or flight” response, and I leap out of bed. This scenario…
Category: Sleep Issues
22 Things I’ve Tried to Get Out of Bed with Depression
Ok, where am I going with this? Am I trying to disassociate myself from depression or am I trying to get out of bed first thing in the morning? I have been thinking, again, about why I cannot get started in the morning. Ever since November, I have struggled to begin the day. If I…
I’ve Worn Out My Snooze Alarm
It seems it is possible to hit your snooze alarm too many times. And when you do, it stops working. I get that my alarm clock is a man-made device, and it has a life expectancy just like other man-made things. But this alarm clock and I have been through so much. I bought it…
7 Reasons I’m Tired of Being Tired
Five months of mostly cloudy. My mind is not clear and crisp on most days. And for the first hour or two after I finally get up, my mind is the foggiest. I am yawning, even though I have been in bed for over 8 hours. If that translated into 8 hours of sleep, my…
Not all advice is good advice
Still worrying about getting out of bed in the morning, I did what most people do these days. No, I did not seek out a professional in the field and make an appointment, “that’s so last year.” I picked up my phone and Googled the answer. I found many helpful articles, but I also found…
Depression Isn’t Always Depressing.
Or is it depression can be depressing? How about, depression is depressing? I want to believe the first one. In fact, I have been struggling with this for the past few days. Why am I so negative? Why am I seeing the bad, not the good, the challenge, not the reward? This whole idea is…
Why Can’t I Outwit This Squirrel?
It should be so easy to keep a squirrel from getting into the bird feeder. You put up a squirrel guard, make sure the feeder is far enough away from trees squirrels can jump from, and the birds have free reign. Of course, that is the textbook version of what to do. The reality is,…
There are still doors my keys do not open
The problem is not all or nothing. Although it feels like that when I am stuck, immobile and indecisive. Once the day gets going, I am better equipped to use the tools I have learned to meet and defeat problems as they come my way. Between SMART Recovery, WRAP training, Peer Support at On Our…
If I Am Not in Control, Am I Out of Control?
Two things are on my mind this morning. My ability to get out of bed in the morning and a mysterious charge to my checking account. Sometime after I went to bed last night, I was charged $200 for a “Promo-Kit.” The time was 11:20 PM and I was in bed, asleep. I discovered it…
Success minus failures equal me
I suppose this is the sum of each of us. We all have our moments of brilliance. For some, it could be discovering a cure for a disease. For others, it’s the moment after spending hours making a repair, we hit the key and the car starts. What defines our successes can change depending on…
