Being in control is powerful. Feeling helpless, not having control can be debilitating and unhealthy. I have been on both sides of the aisle lately. Sometimes I have felt in control and at other times have allowed myself to feel helpless, to be the victim in the situation. Linking my control issues to depression has…
Category: Sleep Issues
Celebrating the little victories brings balance into my life
I clicked on a link and there it was. “We are a spectacular compilation of little victories that exist in the face of odds, not in our favor.” Kate Speer “The Positively Kate Depression-Busting Routine.” Read The entire article. Reading this was exactly what I needed this morning. Kate’s routine begins by celebrating getting out…
No sleep for you: I tossed and turned all night
My sleep patterns have been much better. Maybe it’s my work schedule. Maybe I am tired when I go to bed. Or it could be that depression is not as active. Whatever the reason, my sleep has been much better in the past month or so. Most nights I only wake once, versus my old…
I got up this morning, the rest will be easy
The past 48 hours have been rough. Or at least that is how I framed it in my head. What really happened was my boss had me work three earlier shifts leading up to the holiday. Although I am more of a morning person, my body was getting used to the closing shifts. Getting home…
In the dark, I kicked the box and out popped an automatic thought
At 4 AM, I awoke and needed to go to the bathroom. I rolled back the covers and slid my legs off the bed. I moved the covers over my pillow so Rikki wouldn’t be tempted to move there while I was up. Rikki is our rescue beagle. She sleeps with us, mostly at the…
You should be careful what you wish for
Depression told me I would love early retirement. My plan for the past 30 years was to work until I was 70 ½, before retiring. Full social security benefits, a chance to add some extra cushion to my 401K and staying involved with day to day life outside of the house. This all seemed good…
Another sleepless night
Which leads to a dull, listless, ho-hum day. Not sleeping is still a problem. I have tried different remedies without success. Melatonin, going to bed at the same time, dimming the lights in the bedroom. You can see from my last sleep posts, nothing has changed. https://myconcealeddepression.com/category/sleep-issues/ I have not gone the drug route yet….
Why am I sleepless again?
This whole sleeping thing has kept me up at night. It’s not clear exactly when my sleep became disrupted, but I am nowhere near close to getting a full night’s sleep. And it has been almost a year. The night goes something like this: 10 PM – head to bed and play a few games…
Waking up depressed
This morning, I am having trouble getting the day started. I had trouble even making up my mind to get out of bed. It was already after 7 AM, and I am usually up and going by then. To help me decide whether to stay in bed or get up, I found myself recounting a…
I wish I could sleep
I got out of the hospital Saturday morning at 11:30 AM. Does that make this day 3 or day 4? Not sure. But what I do know was that yesterday was tough. And last night, I just couldn’t fall asleep. In the hospital, I started taking Melatonin to help me fall asleep. It worked a…
