I thought with the new year, things would change. My attitude towards getting out of bed in the morning has not been moved by the beginning of a new decade. While not quite as dramatic as going from 1999 to the year 2,000, a new decade, to me, is a chance to reevaluate my life…
Tag: life
What’s the point of my life?
I thought I would be “cured” by now. Seven months after my hospitalization for Major Depressive Disorder, it feels like I should be on top of my game. I have medication helping me, a therapist, a psychiatrist and peer support. In September, I flew to Chicago and spent the weekend learning SMART Recovery at their…
I bumped into my old self this morning
It was totally unexpected. I guess I had secretly hoped it would happen but was very guarded in my expectations. It has been five days since my Psychiatrist increased my Prozac from 20 mg to 40 mg daily. My instructions are to let him know in 3 weeks how I am feeling, sooner if there…
Afraid or not, life still marches forward
We are either moving forward or we are dead. There is no middle ground. Even when we feel nothing is happening, that what we are doing doesn’t matter, life is going on. My personal thoughts about my self-worth and my value, my contributions to society and the greater good, are done against this backdrop. Whether…
I’m alive, that is my success today
Busy, busy, busy. I cannot stop to write. But I am alive and I am grateful for today. Sometimes celebrating the small stuff is the biggest thing you can do. What will you do with today?
Celebrities are admitting they have depression. I am not alone!
I subscribe to some pretty awesome blogs. I have learned a lot about depression and mental illness in general from these talented writers. Their new blog posts appear in my in box daily. Yesterday, my jaw dropped as I read the headline for a new blog post by Chelsea Owens. Celebrities with Mental Health Issues:…
Quote of the day
No time to write today. I had my annual physical this morning. EKG was good, they drew blood and I peed in a cup. My blood pressure was good and I do not have a fever, but it has been ten years since my last colonoscopy, so my Doctor is going to schedule that. Now…
101 ideal activities for my new life with depression
As I make progress and hash out some of the underlying issues that have caused my depression to intensify at different times in my life, I am beginning to see the value of visualizing my new future. I asked for professional medical attention 5 months ago because I has lost my focus. I could NOT…
I got up this morning, the rest will be easy
The past 48 hours have been rough. Or at least that is how I framed it in my head. What really happened was my boss had me work three earlier shifts leading up to the holiday. Although I am more of a morning person, my body was getting used to the closing shifts. Getting home…
My new idea in my relationship with depression
Recently, I was up against the wall. 100 or so days ago, I was sure that I had no way forward; I could not even see that there was a way. It was pitch black, or worse, colorless, and my life was emotionless, too. I was going through the motions, not appreciating or enjoying anything….
