"I have depression, depression does not have me." This has been my mantra for over 15 months. Hospitalized at the end of April last year, I was diagnosed with major depressive disorder. My hospitalization began my journey to learn all I can about depression. Along the way, I have collected tools that I use daily. Some tools for facing my depression are now so ingrained, that … [Read more...] about Two Tools That Help Me and Others Navigate Depression
Thankfully, I am not talking about suicide. During my last Psychiatrist visit, my Doctor asked me when the last time was, I had thoughts of suicide. I had to think, before answering. My doctor pointed out that this was an incredibly positive sign. Her patients who know exactly when they had their last suicidal thought are more at risk. But not having those kinds of … [Read more...] about Why Do I Have These Thoughts?
Treat Yourself With The Same Dignity and Respect You Give Others. I do a very poor job in how I treat myself and this fortune reminds me of that. Now I wouldn’t call this a fortune even though it came out of a fortune cookie. It is more of an affirmation or a positive saying or words to live by. Maybe the fortune is in living that life where you value yourself, even as … [Read more...] about I Found Unhelpful Thinking In My Fortune Cookie
Today is OK, I have a balanced life. Not grand, or super, but OK certainly. And I am enjoying that. I keep reminding myself that my goal is a balanced life with depression. Today, everything seems in balance. I got in around 1 AM from work. Decompressing rather quickly, I was in bed by 1:30 AM. I didn’t stress about sleeping in until 9 AM. After a few late nights, … [Read more...] about There Are Days When It’s OK
I have been afraid to write about this subject. While people who have suicidal ideation will get it, the vast majority of people do not understand this or are afraid to talk about it. For 43+ years, I was afraid of getting anywhere near the subject. It turns out, I have a major depressive disorder, with suicidal ideation. My suicidal thoughts are not an everyday … [Read more...] about “Those Thoughts,” Are They My Suicidal Ideation?