Treat Yourself With The Same Dignity and Respect You Give Others. I do a very poor job in how I treat myself and this fortune reminds me of that. Now I wouldn’t call this a fortune even though it came out of a fortune cookie. It is more of an affirmation or a positive saying…
Tag: balanced life
There Are Days When It’s OK
Today is OK, I have a balanced life. Not grand, or super, but OK certainly. And I am enjoying that. I keep reminding myself that my goal is a balanced life with depression. Today, everything seems in balance. I got in around 1 AM from work. Decompressing rather quickly, I was in bed by 1:30…
“Those Thoughts,” Are They My Suicidal Ideation?
I have been afraid to write about this subject. While people who have suicidal ideation will get it, the vast majority of people do not understand this or are afraid to talk about it. For 43+ years, I was afraid of getting anywhere near the subject. It turns out, I have a major depressive disorder,…
Super Saturday – Maybe I Did Need Some Time Off
I have gotten a myriad of things done today. It is day two of my mini-vacation and I am more relaxed than yesterday. In fact, yesterday I was scattered all over the place. Today, my list and my priorities are more aligned. Having purchased the tomato cages yesterday, putting them around the plants in the…
Have I Fallen Off the Recovery Wagon?
Or maybe I am still on it, but I am not driving it? Whatever it is, it feels unproductive. I’ve read a lot of articles recently by medical professionals who say it is OK to feel anxious right now. Afterall, pandemics have not come around too often. So, they say don’ beat yourself up if…
What is Depression and Why Do I Have It?
Beginning my second year with Major Depressive Disorder, I am still not leading a balanced life. Now things are certainly much, much better than they were a year ago. I have hope and can see a way forward. Last year, I was up against the wall and saw NO way forward. It was all abyss….
What Are You Doing Today?
I had in mind working on a Decision-Making Worksheet/Cost-Benefit Analysis this morning. My goal is to map out a plan for the coming year. My attitude towards events as they unfold is what I can control. So I am trying out different ideas to see what makes the most sense. However, I am not seeing…
Did I Miss My Anniversary?
No, I did not miss my wedding anniversary. I know that date and will be forever grateful for it. As we approach 40 years of marriage, there is so much to be thankful for. But that is not for a few more months. We have marked this occasion together every year since our first. But…
Depression and I Are on a First-Name Basis
It’s a disease after all. It can’t exactly be the enemy, because it is a part of me. Trying to understand how to frame my relationship with depression has been complicated. Not only is it a disease, but it is also a mental health issue. That makes it nowhere near as straight forward as cancer….
With Depression in Full Bloom, I was a Mess Last Year.
I guess in many ways I still am. I am learning how to live with depression after avoiding facing it for over 43+ years. I had a whole system in place to protect myself from the truth. I lived through at least four major episodes before winding up in the hospital a year ago. That…
