Today is OK, I have a balanced life. Not grand, or super, but OK certainly. And I am enjoying that. I keep reminding myself that my goal is a balanced life with depression. Today, everything seems in balance. I got in around 1 AM from work. Decompressing rather quickly, I was in bed by 1:30 AM. I didn’t stress about sleeping in until 9 AM. After a few late nights, … [Read more...] about There Are Days When It’s OK
I have been afraid to write about this subject. While people who have suicidal ideation will get it, the vast majority of people do not understand this or are afraid to talk about it. For 43+ years, I was afraid of getting anywhere near the subject. It turns out, I have a major depressive disorder, with suicidal ideation. My suicidal thoughts are not an everyday … [Read more...] about “Those Thoughts,” Are They My Suicidal Ideation?
I have gotten a myriad of things done today. It is day two of my mini-vacation and I am more relaxed than yesterday. In fact, yesterday I was scattered all over the place. Today, my list and my priorities are more aligned. Having purchased the tomato cages yesterday, putting them around the plants in the garden was an easy undertaking. Each day, the plants are bigger … [Read more...] about Super Saturday – Maybe I Did Need Some Time Off
Or maybe I am still on it, but I am not driving it? Whatever it is, it feels unproductive. I’ve read a lot of articles recently by medical professionals who say it is OK to feel anxious right now. Afterall, pandemics have not come around too often. So, they say don’ beat yourself up if you feel anxious. But for me, having an out if you will, lets me off the … [Read more...] about Have I Fallen Off the Recovery Wagon?
Beginning my second year with Major Depressive Disorder, I am still not leading a balanced life. Now things are certainly much, much better than they were a year ago. I have hope and can see a way forward. Last year, I was up against the wall and saw NO way forward. It was all abyss. I was way past circling the drain. And yet I got up each day, and concealed my depression, … [Read more...] about What is Depression and Why Do I Have It?