Imagine saying this out loud: “My last bottom was the deepest, darkest, most horrible place I have ever been.” Yet that was me last year. Reading through some of my older writing, I came across this line. It reached out and stunned me. How could I have written that? I had no idea I was that bad. It’s no wonder I sought professional medical attention. Reading that again … [Read more...] about I’m Glad I Did Not Know How Bad I Was
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Depression is happiest when I am keeping secrets. It loves when I sneak around and don’t share what it is telling me. All those crazy plan’s depression has suggested to me over the years involve me keeping them hidden from others. This has included major issues relating to my job. And many minor issues like canceling our back up internet service at the house without … [Read more...] about I Have Fewer Secrets Taking Wellbutrin – Doing the Drugs Part V
Treat Yourself With The Same Dignity and Respect You Give Others. I do a very poor job in how I treat myself and this fortune reminds me of that. Now I wouldn’t call this a fortune even though it came out of a fortune cookie. It is more of an affirmation or a positive saying or words to live by. Maybe the fortune is in living that life where you value yourself, even as … [Read more...] about I Found Unhelpful Thinking In My Fortune Cookie
I know my depression recovery is not a straight line. And, in the animal kingdom, some species are more active at certain times of the year. This includes raccoons that I see now on my nightly commute home. Having traveled the same back roads for almost a year, there are certain spots where I expect to see wildlife. Over the winter, I saw way more fox than I am seeing now. … [Read more...] about Recent Raccoons and My Depression
Most days, I must explain to you why I am allowing myself some self-care time. For some reason, I don’t feel like I deserve to have “me time.” I grew up without learning how to look out for myself first. Now that may seem off-base to those closest to me. I have set goals, achieved results and always been the go-to person. And many of my projects were thought of and … [Read more...] about Why Am I Afraid to Be Me?