It’s a disease after all. It can’t exactly be the enemy, because it is a part of me. Trying to understand how to frame my relationship with depression has been complicated. Not only is it a disease, but it is also a mental health issue. That makes it nowhere near as straight forward as cancer….
Tag: self care
With depression in full bloom, I was a mess last year.
I guess in many ways I still am. I am learning how to live with depression after avoiding facing it for over 43+ years. I had a whole system in place to protect myself from the truth. I lived through at least four major episodes before winding up in the hospital a year ago. That…
Self-isolation is so isolating
I am forgetting how much I enjoy in-person interaction. This past weekend had been booked as a bridal shower in a northern state. We were to drive up Friday, attend the bridal shower on Saturday, visit Sunday and return home on Monday. This was planned months before Covid 19 made its entrance on the world…
A day working in the yard has helped me dust the cobwebs out of my mind.
Today, it almost seems like everything is right with the world. I got to spend the morning with my wife. First hanging out in the living room, talking about what to do with the day. Then doing some grocery shopping, picking up a prescription all the while maintaining “social distancing.” Then I focused on mowing…
Which new normal? MDD or Covid19?
I am still learning to live with major depressive disorder. Now I am also learning to live surrounded by the coronavirus. I am troubled more than a little by the double whammy. Yet, my plight, if it is a plight, seems increasingly minor, compared to others. Obviously, dying is not the desired outcome for anyone….
Even non-essential citizens need self-care
Gov. Northam forcing certain non-essential businesses in Virginia to close Read the article here It is easy to get caught up in the Corona Virus Pandemic. The uncertainty it is causing has jolted the financial markets, caused people to horde toilet paper and Ramen Noodles and put most people on edge. Everyone is learning two…
7 reasons I’m tired of being tired
Five months of mostly cloudy. My mind is not clear and crisp on most days. And for the first hour or two after I finally get up, my mind is the foggiest. I am yawning, even though I have been in bed for over 8 hours. If that translated into 8 hours of sleep, my…
Everybody wants me, so when do I self-care?
Our accountant is waiting for the rest of my tax information. Changing to in-network doctors, my insurance company is waiting for the names and dates of appointments I have set up. My Peer Support Advocate is waiting for me to call her with an update. The furnace guy is coming for our 6-month check-up and…
Depression isn’t always depressing.
Or is it depression can be depressing? How about, depression is depressing? I want to believe the first one. In fact, I have been struggling with this for the past few days. Why am I so negative? Why am I seeing the bad, not the good, the challenge, not the reward? This whole idea is…
Three Lucky things that have happened to me
It’s so easy to think about everything that has gone wrong. The chances you never took, the job opportunities you passed up, the stocks you didn’t buy, or even some of the ones you did buy. All of this can take a toll on anyone’s positive nature. Reflecting on choices made can help you learn…
