Is that so hard?
I am still having the waking up issue. It seems I have walked all around the edges of this. But I have not faced it or asked the right questions.
I still wonder, is this related to my change in medication? Having the courage, conviction, self-advocacy determination to get the answer isn’t enough.
Depression has got me doing the deer in headlights.
Heck, I know I need to call my Psychiatrist. I can tell you, there is probably a correlation between my mood change and the upping of my Prozac from 20 to 40 mg. daily. But I am not a doctor and I do not play one on TV. So, I am deferring my diagnosis to the professionals.
But then I am procrastinating, minimizing my feelings about the medication and maximizing the anxiety I am feeling about calling my Psychiatrist.
Why am I, with all information to the contrary, mind-reading and deciding that my Psychiatrist is too busy for something as small as my mental health? Heck, I am just a smudge on the windshield of life when it comes to the big picture. Now, suddenly, I am circling the drain and using several unhelpful thinking styles.
I just want to be myself today.
My Concealed Depression is written under the pseudonym “Depression is not my boss.” I have certifications in SMART Recovery and am a Global Career Development Facilitator.Join me or if you find them helpful, please share my thoughts with those you care about, as I explore my life with depression.