I don’t like it, but I cannot seem to stop depression from doing it. Despite my depression, there are parts of most days where I am in love. I am especially in love when I am thinking about her. And there are moments when we are together that are special. We play board games together on the back deck and take walks around the property with our dog. These are the times I … [Read more...] about My Depression Has Me Falling in and Out of Love
Unhelpful thinking
Doing The Drugs – Part “Who Knows, I’ve lost track”
Mirtazapine, generic for Remeron, was added to my anti-depressant regime recently. A Google search reveals: Mirtazapine is an antidepressant used to treat major depressive disorders in adults. It is not known if mirtazapine is safe and effective for use to treat MDD in children1. It is often used in cases of depression complicated by anxiety or insomnia2. It … [Read more...] about Doing The Drugs – Part “Who Knows, I’ve lost track”
Why I Say That I Am No Longer Evergreen
Photo by Kayla Warner on Unsplash Another post about my lifelong struggle to face major depressive disorder (concealed depression) They say you always remember your first time. Well with my `depression, that is not true. For me, major moments stand out, including what I came to call “my lost year.” But most of my depression, up until 4 years ago, is one big blur. In … [Read more...] about Why I Say That I Am No Longer Evergreen
It’s Just a Hike, Why Am I Using All or Nothing Thinking?
Why would I turn a 4 ½ hour trek in Shenandoah National Park into an all-or-nothing scenario? After all, this was just a warmup to trekking the Inca Trail this October in Peru. A chance to test out gear and remember what worked and what did not when we climbed Kilimanjaro in January. And maybe it was hotter than any recent hike I have undertaken. But why should that trigger … [Read more...] about It’s Just a Hike, Why Am I Using All or Nothing Thinking?
Has It Been Three Years Since I Was Pulled Over? – Road Rage Part 5
I don’t believe it’s fair to blame my depression for my speeding. After all, my depression is not driving the truck, I am. And while depression is putting unhelpful thinking to work, I should know better. I certainly should have known better traveling a back road after 12 AM and then passing through a work zone. When the officer came to the window he said: “Sir, did you … [Read more...] about Has It Been Three Years Since I Was Pulled Over? – Road Rage Part 5