I should have known better than to rush the morning so I could leave on time. After all, this trip is a mini vacation. But sleeping in until almost 7 AM, I felt like I had a lot to do to leave the house by 10 AM. The trip to the Poconos from our part of Virginia was a 6-hour drive. I still had to push a load of laundry through the dryer, pack my suitcase, grab my computer, … [Read more...] about Why Am I Obsessed with Always Being Early?
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Photo by Finn on Unsplash I mean it makes sense that it would help. Yet I have made excuses to stop going even after I had fought to get one therapist into my insurance network. I was paying out of pocket and had already called my health insurance provider once about getting him to be in-network. I finally got the nerve to call again after I had spent $115 for each of … [Read more...] about Am I Afraid of Talk Therapy to Beat My Depression?
There should not be pressure associated with a holiday, yet here I am, stressing about the day. Labor Day comes once a year in the US and today is the day. The origins of the occasion were once clearer than they are today. Somehow Memorial Day and the 4th of July are easier to understand. I do know that Labor Day is a time to honor workers. A quick Google search reveals the … [Read more...] about Another Holiday – Another Chance to Change?
Photo by Towfiqu barbhuiya on Unsplash Last night, it seemed like a logical question to ask. I began to ponder it and play out the ramifications in my head. There must have been a reason why I did not write it down. I try to save ideas such as what inspired me so I can ponder them later. I'm like a cow grazing the grass, then later chewing its cud. Why didn’t I write … [Read more...] about Did Depression Make Me Forget?
Photo by Nico Smit on Unsplash My depression has exclusivity in my life. Try as I might to invite others in to share my life, in the end, I find ways to stay distant. Even when I initiate the friendship or professional relationship, in the end, I find ways to stay distant from them. And even when I stay involved, my depression is still working to keep me separate from … [Read more...] about Why Won’t Depression Let Professional Help In?