My flight leaves at 1 PM today. It is almost 8;30 AM. I am usually packed the night before, ready to go. But my clean laundry is still in the laundry room. I did get my suitcase out of the closet yesterday and put my shaving kit on top of the suitcase. They are both…
Tag: unhelpful thinking styles
Celebrities are admitting they have depression. I am not alone!
I subscribe to some pretty awesome blogs. I have learned a lot about depression and mental illness in general from these talented writers. Their new blog posts appear in my in box daily. Yesterday, my jaw dropped as I read the headline for a new blog post by Chelsea Owens. Celebrities with Mental Health Issues:…
Is this what getting to know you feels like?
For a moment, I was thinking about what you need out of this conversation. Although I always told myself that I have the other persons interest at heart whenever I interact, the feeling I had yesterday was new. I grew up with “treat others as you would like to be treated,” and “a person’s true…
Quote of the day
No time to write today. I had my annual physical this morning. EKG was good, they drew blood and I peed in a cup. My blood pressure was good and I do not have a fever, but it has been ten years since my last colonoscopy, so my Doctor is going to schedule that. Now…
Am I asking the right question?
It is easy to live in the future. No one to bother you, everything is exactly as you imagine it and the grass is greener on your side of the fence. But I am finding out that living in the future has its costs. It is not free. And the price I am paying may…
Why did I think that? I thought I was getting better.
Why do I suddenly feel the need to explain myself? I am almost five months out from my hospital stay for depression. That is almost five months of living with depression, of saying the word depression out loud, and keeping depression out in the open where I can see it. As I wrote the sentence…
I cannot get it back
I am so angry this morning. I cannot believe some of the decisions I have made in the past 43 years. It is infuriating to think that I have thrown away different opportunities that would have made significant changes in my life. My plan as I write this is to be mad at depression for…
My progress is my own business
How I stack up against others is not the issue. I end up “shoulding” all over myself when I think about others. Either I “should have helped,” “I shouldn’t have helped,” “I should have seen…” or “Why didn’t I see… ” What a cluster. There is no good answer, but there is plenty of pain…
I want to say thank you for yesterday.
Focusing on the one thing I could control, I decided to look at my attitude towards the weekend. On Friday, I had decided to understand how I needed to think if I was going to relax and enjoy the day. It was clear that I normally would be stressed out about not doing things I…
I do the same thing every morning
There seems to be a routine in place. I didn’t realize I was so predictable. It doesn’t matter when I go to bed, I am up between 7 and 730 am. I put a t-shirt on and my slip-on sandals and head to the bathroom. After using the facilities, I take my Prozac. In order…
