Last night I had a virtual therapy appointment. I remember my therapist had asked a question and I was responding. It was my side of the story I was relating. Not just the facts or my feelings about it, but I was defending my actions. My decision and why I made it was a source of pride I suppose. My therapist stopped me and said, “I hear rationalization.” He had caught … [Read more...] about My Psychiatrist Asked Me, “When Is Enough, Enough”?
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Getting Back to Therapy Wasn’t What I Expected
For some reason, I envisioned a breakthrough session last night. By the end of the zoom meeting, I thought all my cares would be lifted and I would have found a nugget of truth I could work with until the next session. My anticipation of our first meeting under the new framework was hard to contain. After all, we had done some great work together. It was February 5th when … [Read more...] about Getting Back to Therapy Wasn’t What I Expected
What You See May Not Be What You Get
I see eyes and a mouth ready to eat me if I get too close. That’s what I see as I sit in my therapist’s office waiting for my appointment. Maybe I watched too many cartoons as a child. I see the raised couch cushion forming an upper lip, while the frame underneath becomes the bottom of the mouth. And the tops of the sofa arms, become eyes. But if I go over, all I will … [Read more...] about What You See May Not Be What You Get
I’ve Worn Out My Snooze Alarm
It seems it is possible to hit your snooze alarm too many times. And when you do, it stops working. I get that my alarm clock is a man-made device, and it has a life expectancy just like other man-made things. But this alarm clock and I have been through so much. I bought it because it had two alarms. When I had a more consistent work schedule, I had one set for work and … [Read more...] about I’ve Worn Out My Snooze Alarm
I still have time for Valentine’s Day
Procrastination could just be a guy thing, not a sign of depression. Whatever the cause, I am going to be one of those last-minute husbands today, rushing around to select just the right card from the picked over selection left after the early birds claimed their worms (cards). And then it’s a visit to the chocolate shop, to pick the right treats. Oh, and did I mention … [Read more...] about I still have time for Valentine’s Day