Predictable, steady, expectable, certain, sure, unsurprising, humdrum, obvious, and foreseeable. That is my life. And that has been my life for several months. I guess it is always something. And depression has clouded my life with generous helpings of unhelpful thinking. A year ago, I was fixated on not being able to get started in the morning. It took five months of … [Read more...] about What Depression Doesn’t Want You To Know About Unhelpful Thinking Styles
I tried to call my doctor first, but I procrastinated, and then they were closed. Then I remembered I could get a message to my Doctor using My Charts. In our area, at least, all the doctors’ offices are going to this electronic communication system. I can see upcoming appointments, test results and even notes from my doctor’s visits. I assumed I would get a response by the … [Read more...] about Why Did I Take Two Wellbutrin? – Doing the Drugs Part VIII
I see eyes and a mouth ready to eat me if I get too close. That’s what I see as I sit in my therapist’s office waiting for my appointment. Maybe I watched too many cartoons as a child. I see the raised couch cushion forming an upper lip, while the frame underneath becomes the bottom of the mouth. And the tops of the sofa arms, become eyes. But if I go over, all I will … [Read more...] about What You See May Not Be What You Get
I promise to tell my new Doctor the truth, the whole truth, and nothing but the truth. Going into my doctor’s office and putting on my concealed depression face results in me not getting the true help I need. Depression is once again getting me to be secretive. It reminds me that no one understands me as well as it does, and I should be wary of anyone (or any medicine) that … [Read more...] about Will I be Ready for My New Psychiatrist?
Funny, I do not see my 300th blog post as a time of celebration. Hitting my 100th and 200th blog posts, I made it into a celebration of life; my life. I was excited to still be alive, to have a better sense of the way forward. With my 100th blog post, I was grateful that I was no longer "Up Against the Wall." Having received tools, support, and insights, I was able to begin … [Read more...] about My 300th Post Sharing My Life with Depression