Is it my medication or am I not brave enough to explore my feelings? With 44+ years of practice, I am exceptionally good at feeling numb and blocking out my feelings. Listening to an EBT audiobook on the way to work the other day, the author said some people are overly emotional and in touch with their feelings. Others suppress their feelings and emotions like a bottle of … [Read more...] about Why Am I Choosing Numb Instead of Real Feelings?
stages of change
The past week or so has been a series of crappy, frustrating events. Or that is how I took them. My positive attitude checked out and left my “woe is me” attitude to do all the work. This is never good. I gave away my control of situations and circumstances and allowed them to batter me senseless. The process was out of control and I was circling the drain. It … [Read more...] about Guess what happened when I changed my attitude?
That would be a step up from where I am right now. The harder I work on my recovery, the further behind I feel. Now part of this may be the time of year. I know about S.A.D. and what happens when you do not get enough sunlight. This could certainly be a factor in how I feel. But why is it, particularly when I am taking the SMART Training classes and learning so many … [Read more...] about Today I wish I were sad