For several weeks now, my scale has hovered around 198 lbs. This is 14 lb. above my February weight, and 20+ pounds above my ideal weight. I tell myself that I will easily lose weight when I focus on this. But that has not gotten the pounds off. In fact, several weeks ago I was weighing in at 194.4 lbs. So my weight is only climbing, not receding. I can feel the extra … [Read more...] about Losing My Pandemic Pounds is Not Easy
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Super Saturday – Maybe I Did Need Some Time Off
I have gotten a myriad of things done today. It is day two of my mini-vacation and I am more relaxed than yesterday. In fact, yesterday I was scattered all over the place. Today, my list and my priorities are more aligned. Having purchased the tomato cages yesterday, putting them around the plants in the garden was an easy undertaking. Each day, the plants are bigger … [Read more...] about Super Saturday – Maybe I Did Need Some Time Off
Super Focused, Then Super Distrac… Oh Look, a Squirrel
My mind is all over the place lately. Now I know there is a lot going on, but that is no excuse. OK, so a year ago I was in the hospital being treated for MDD, major depressive disorder. Then I came out of retirement and went back to work in management. Then, the pandemic happened and all sorts of customs (social distancing) and costumes (masks) have become the new … [Read more...] about Super Focused, Then Super Distrac… Oh Look, a Squirrel
I Do Not Give A Hoot Today
But I really want to care. Somehow, I need to jump-start my recovery again. All I seem to do is to be going sideways. I am not allowing myself to be honest about what is going on inside me. This puts me back to being “evergreen,” not letting my depression show. I do this at a great cost to myself. So, I am beginning to see how much damage depression can cause when I … [Read more...] about I Do Not Give A Hoot Today
I Am Tired Of Being Tired – Part II
Today has been much like most recent days. Certain topics are not on my radar. I am clunking around in a daze, hoping that the answer to why I am feeling blah will pull me aside and reveal itself to me. Why is life so empty? Why can’t I get it together? Where is the piece I am missing and how do I get it? I hit every single stoplight on my way to my doctor’s appointment … [Read more...] about I Am Tired Of Being Tired – Part II