Why do I feel lifeless when so many things are good? What is causing this enormous hole in my day to day feelings? The list for today was made yesterday. Many things on the list were crossed off as completed before lunchtime. So what? I just want to feel better. Feeling better is all I want. Not great, spectacular, or even above average. Simply better than I … [Read more...] about Many Things Are Going Well, So Why Do I Feel Lackluster and Dull?
Today is a day for self-care, there is no time for depression. My Wellbutrin 150 mg and my body seem to be OK with each other. I am six weeks into the new medicine. It has also been two weeks since I completely stopped the Prozac. The transition has been mostly seamless. But there were two days that had me catastrophizing. I was sure I was headed to the abyss. But that … [Read more...] about There’s Too Much Going on Today, No Time for Depression
Depression makes it almost impossible for me to seek help for MDD. And as I finally begin to address it and seek out professional treatment, the paperwork and insurance have me circling the drain. Fresh out of 5 East last year, I knew very quickly that my insurance did not cover all mental health issues. I understood and accepted paying out of pocket for these expenses. … [Read more...] about Getting Help for Depression When You Have Depression
"This time it will be different" was what I told myself about depression for over 40 years. I support free speech and the right to congregate and express grievances. Being a Baby Boomer, I have marched and chanted “make love, not war.” I know firsthand the injustices citizens can be subjected to by police and others in authority. On a day set aside to honor our saying … [Read more...] about 4th of July in a “This Time It Will be Different” Country
I know my depression recovery is not a straight line. And, in the animal kingdom, some species are more active at certain times of the year. This includes raccoons that I see now on my nightly commute home. Having traveled the same back roads for almost a year, there are certain spots where I expect to see wildlife. Over the winter, I saw way more fox than I am seeing now. … [Read more...] about Recent Raccoons and My Depression