Is depression my reason for living? After all, I have grown up with depression. We have been together for over 43 years, probably longer. And much of my life was spent not facing my depression. Heck, I was the expert on hiding my depression every time it would come around. I could certainly be the…
Tag: mental health
Day Four of Wellbutrin Alone – Doing the Drugs Part VI
Statistically, day 4 is way too early to form an opinion about my change in medicine. I have done nothing but sing the praises of Wellbutrin XL 150 mg. Within a week of beginning the new medication regimen, I was getting out of bed without a struggle. And for the first two weeks, I was…
Two Days in A Row, Am I Dreaming?
Once again, I woke up and I got up. No drama, no negotiating with myself about whether to get up or stay in bed a little longer. You don’t know how relieved I am to skip the anxiety and worry about something as simple as getting out of bed. Lately, I can either roll over…
Wellbutrin Could Be My New Best Friend
Not that I won’t still have a place in my heart for Prozac. Before both of those, I researched SAM-E. Knowing it could have mood adjusting properties, I started taking it maybe 10 years ago. It wasn’t because I thought I had depression (which I now know I do), but because it helps with joint…
Guess What I Wrote Down?
It has been months since I opened my WRAP® PLAN workbook. There have been so many things competing for my time, that I let my own needs, my personal self-care slip to the side. I know there will be good days and days of inactivity. But practicing self-care has been an important part of my…
Will I be Ready for My New Psychiatrist?
I promise to tell my new Doctor the truth, the whole truth, and nothing but the truth. Going into my doctor’s office and putting on my concealed depression face results in me not getting the true help I need. Depression is once again getting me to be secretive. It reminds me that no one understands…
If I Only Had 10 Days to Live
A year ago, my focus was on Major Depressive Disorder. Would I figure it out? Was there life for me going forward? Could I see past the wall that I was up against? Although at that moment, I could not see the big picture, somewhere in my anatomy, I knew I would make it. Remember,…
COVID-19 is Not the Present I Had Expected
With my first anniversary of my hospitalization for MDD, I count the mental health tools I now have as my anniversary presents. Now I am speaking about the tools I use to deal with my Major Depressive Disorder, not the tools I use to change the oil in my truck. These tools and coping skills…
I’m Doing What I Can Right Now
Yet, I have the feeling I should be doing more. Not a healthy feeling, but a feeling none the less. There are a couple of tax items I need to put together. I spoke to my account and confirmed the extended deadlines, which is helpful this year. Even during my deep depression last year, I…
What Are We Searching For in This Pandemic?
Mental health resources, suicide hotlines? If you need help now, call a 24-hour crisis center at 1-800-273-TALK (8255) or 1-800-SUICIDE (1-800-784-2433) for free, private help or dial 911. These are unnerving times. I know that the past few months have transformed my thinking about what is normal. Things I take for granted are now not available. All the local…
