Why do I feel lifeless when so many things are good? What is causing this enormous hole in my day to day feelings? The list for today was made yesterday. Many things on the list were crossed off as completed before lunchtime. So what? I just want to feel better. Feeling better is all I want. Not great, spectacular, or even above average. Simply better than I … [Read more...] about Many Things Are Going Well, So Why Do I Feel Lackluster and Dull?
Is depression my reason for living? After all, I have grown up with depression. We have been together for over 43 years, probably longer. And much of my life was spent not facing my depression. Heck, I was the expert on hiding my depression every time it would come around. I could certainly be the poster child for concealed depression. And then, I can sweep the … [Read more...] about Am I Afraid to Heal?
Statistically, day 4 is way too early to form an opinion about my change in medicine. I have done nothing but sing the praises of Wellbutrin XL 150 mg. Within a week of beginning the new medication regimen, I was getting out of bed without a struggle. And for the first two weeks, I was experiencing one of the side effects, appetite suppression. Losing my pandemic pounds was … [Read more...] about Day Four of Wellbutrin Alone – Doing the Drugs Part VI
Once again, I woke up and I got up. No drama, no negotiating with myself about whether to get up or stay in bed a little longer. You don’t know how relieved I am to skip the anxiety and worry about something as simple as getting out of bed. Lately, I can either roll over and grab a few more winks or get up. Now, the bartering and indecision are gone. READ: I just want to … [Read more...] about Two Days in A Row, Am I Dreaming?
Not that I won’t still have a place in my heart for Prozac. Before both of those, I researched SAM-E. Knowing it could have mood adjusting properties, I started taking it maybe 10 years ago. It wasn’t because I thought I had depression (which I now know I do), but because it helps with joint pain. At least, that is what I told myself. Depression wasn’t interested in me … [Read more...] about Wellbutrin Could Be My New Best Friend