Yes, I was being smug and self-righteous about my assumed success! The 399th blog post I titled: Two Years Later, My Depression Has Lifted. That was April 22nd of this year. I waited almost 6 weeks to write my 400th blog post. There was a feeling I had in April that I was not only in balance but cured. I no longer needed to think about depression or worry about its … [Read more...] about Seriously, I Wasted 2 ½ Months Not Writing About My Depression?
living a balanced life
Thankfully, I am not talking about suicide. During my last Psychiatrist visit, my Doctor asked me when the last time was, I had thoughts of suicide. I had to think, before answering. My doctor pointed out that this was an incredibly positive sign. Her patients who know exactly when they had their last suicidal thought are more at risk. But not having those kinds of … [Read more...] about Why Do I Have These Thoughts?
Today is OK, I have a balanced life. Not grand, or super, but OK certainly. And I am enjoying that. I keep reminding myself that my goal is a balanced life with depression. Today, everything seems in balance. I got in around 1 AM from work. Decompressing rather quickly, I was in bed by 1:30 AM. I didn’t stress about sleeping in until 9 AM. After a few late nights, … [Read more...] about There Are Days When It’s OK
Why? I’m still not sure what to say to my new Psychiatrist. And the appointment is less than five hours away. Yes, I have made some notes and collected documents. I have my Aetna Insurance card and my drivers license. In the bathroom, I hung a large cloth bag to collect all my current prescription medication, plus the supplements I am taking. Once again, I have all the … [Read more...] about I’m a Little Nervous This Morning
I have been afraid to write about this subject. While people who have suicidal ideation will get it, the vast majority of people do not understand this or are afraid to talk about it. For 43+ years, I was afraid of getting anywhere near the subject. It turns out, I have a major depressive disorder, with suicidal ideation. My suicidal thoughts are not an everyday … [Read more...] about “Those Thoughts,” Are They My Suicidal Ideation?