My depression is a classic textbook hopelessness. Not the passing, “oh, I will never pass this exam,” or the “why didn’t I get the job?” While I have had many similar thoughts over my lifetime, these would only last a few days. I would get over it and move on. This feeling of hopelessness, in moderation, is a normal part of life. We all have disappointments and situations we … [Read more...] about What Does Your Depression Look Like? Mine Has Three Feelings.
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Why just rewriting my negative scripts didn’t help
Searching online for resources about mental health, I came across a group in the UK. They offer many free downloads of handouts and offer workshops if you live near them. I downloaded their “7 key points to achieve a resilient mindset.” Click the link and you can get a copy. This got me thinking about how I am scripting my thoughts about my daily focus. I have been spending … [Read more...] about Why just rewriting my negative scripts didn’t help
What do my days look like?
After 52 blog posts, I’m having a “moment.” Until this morning, I have been overflowing with things to write about. When I pull out the laptop and sit down in a chair on the front porch, the words have just poured out of me. Well today, they are colliding. I can’t make sense of any of them. I can’t get past the first paragraph. I’ve been here before. I should know that this … [Read more...] about What do my days look like?
You won’t believe what it took to get back to the gym
You will be as surprised as I was. After weeks of saying I was going to get back to the gym, I went today. I had thought about going every day since I got home from the hospital. In fact, I even went once during the first week I was home. And then nothing. If this was a movie, it would be a dark black background with crickets chirping. The cricket sounds would get louder and … [Read more...] about You won’t believe what it took to get back to the gym
Why do the good times always end?
The more I learn about depression, the more I see how crafty and stealth it can be. It works just below the conscious level, moving things around at will, so in the end, it pushes you up against the wall. Well, at least that has been my experience. It sneaks around the edges of my life and then springs on me when everything seems to be going great. Depression is not … [Read more...] about Why do the good times always end?