I thought with the new year, things would change. My attitude towards getting out of bed in the morning has not been moved by the beginning of a new decade. While not quite as dramatic as going from 1999 to the year 2,000, a new decade, to me, is a chance to reevaluate my life…
Tag: High-functioning depression
It’s all piling up, I’ve got to get a grip
Here are the clues I’m not on my game. I don’t sleep well. I am back to the waking every hour or so. When I work late and close the building, I am going to bed about 1 AM. I wake at 3, then 4, then 5:30, 6:30, AM or so, and I keep trying…
10 ways I am de-stressing the holidays
Even before acknowledging my depression, the holidays could be stressful. Expectations about what “should” happen can make things uncomfortable at best. When I would go into the holidays without clearly thinking about what I want and need for self-care, the outcomes were generally ok, sometimes good, but unpredictable. This year, I am thinking about the…
What is my motivation?
If I were an actor in a play, I would be asking the director that question. Seriously, I am not sure why I am doing the things I am doing. That being said, some things are clear. I travel to my day job because they have fantastic health benefits. This is worth the time and…
I can’t believe I lied to my Psychiatrist
Well, maybe I just did not tell him everything. That sounds a lot better. Yet, in the end, I wasn’t honest about how I was doing. My years of practice hiding and concealing my depression kicked in when I went in to see him last week. It had been three months since I first saw…
When will the fun start?
I know I should be happy to be alive. Just getting out of bed each morning is an accomplishment. When you think about how life manifests itself, most life just is. Look at lichens and moss. They have hung around for billions of years in pretty much the same state as we see them today….
Getting help keeping it in the lane
Today I am scattered. There is so much on my mind, I am having trouble slowing things down. Getting to the most important tasks is what I need to focus on. I have a list in my head, which would be easier to manage if I had written it down. But I can’t seem to…
Celebrating the little victories brings balance into my life
I clicked on a link and there it was. “We are a spectacular compilation of little victories that exist in the face of odds, not in our favor.” Kate Speer “The Positively Kate Depression-Busting Routine.” Read The entire article. Reading this was exactly what I needed this morning. Kate’s routine begins by celebrating getting out…
11 Things Depression has done, and it’s only Wednesday
Depression can be sneaky. It has infested itself in my being and has taken up residence in my body as if it belongs there. I am angry this morning. And as I think about why I am angry; I am recognizing things that are happening that I must learn to think differently about. Living with…
Quote of the day
No time to write today. I had my annual physical this morning. EKG was good, they drew blood and I peed in a cup. My blood pressure was good and I do not have a fever, but it has been ten years since my last colonoscopy, so my Doctor is going to schedule that. Now…
