Asking for professional medical help was one of the hardest things I have ever done. I started writing the morning after I was released from the hospital. In 5 North, I was diagnosed with major depressive disorder, with suicidal ideation. Feeling up against the wall, seeking professional medical advice was the least hard of the three choices I felt I had. Choice #1 was to … [Read more...] about After Getting Help for Myself, I Can Now Share with Others
It was the 4th of July yesterday and I got distracted. I have an alarm set on my phone to bring in the birdfeeders around dusk. This removes them from harm before the bears come by. Well, between going to my sisters for a picnic supper (outside with mostly social distancing) and setting off a few fireworks when back at home, I forgot to bring in the bird feeders. The … [Read more...] about Knowing What to Do and Doing it Are Two Different Things
It’s not that I don’t think COVID 19 is real. Unlike COVID 19, I spent years concealing my disease, working around it as a person with high-functioning depression. My relationship with depression has been an evolutionary process. As I learn more about how it works, I can see where I have bought into depression madness and where I have stood firm. READ MORE: I think I … [Read more...] about Does Wearing a Mask Mean I am Afraid?
A global pandemic makes my depression seem like small potatoes. I have fought this for over 43 years, and the last bout finally landed me in the hospital. Yet, depression and I have not parted ways. We still share the same space. My cranium is its cranium, my frontal cortex is its frontal cortex. It’s as if depression is a disease living inside of me. And of course, … [Read more...] about Is Sheltering In Place the Answer?
Auto-recovery is an urban legend. Well, at least for me today it is. Having finished a page and a half of my latest blog post, I pissed off my laptop somehow and Word closed. Historically, when I re-open Word, there is a list of auto-recovery documents on the left side of the screen. From there, I can re-open doc2 or doc8 and then save it to prevent future … [Read more...] about And Just Like That, it is Gone!