It’s not that I don’t think COVID 19 is real. Unlike COVID 19, I spent years concealing my disease, working around it as a person with high-functioning depression. My relationship with depression has been an evolutionary process. As I learn more about how it works, I can see where I have bought into depression madness…
Tag: High-functioning Anxiety
Is Sheltering In Place the Answer?
A global pandemic makes my depression seem like small potatoes. I have fought this for over 43 years, and the last bout finally landed me in the hospital. Yet, depression and I have not parted ways. We still share the same space. My cranium is its cranium, my frontal cortex is its frontal cortex. It’s…
And Just Like That, it is Gone!
Auto-recovery is an urban legend. Well, at least for me today it is. Having finished a page and a half of my latest blog post, I pissed off my laptop somehow and Word closed. Historically, when I re-open Word, there is a list of auto-recovery documents on the left side of the screen. From there,…
Can I consistently feel better?
I just want to be better than I am now. Not great, magnificent, or even “damn fine”, just better. This whole depression thing is tiring me out. Every day, I am reminded of what I have lost. The things that could have been popping up at the oddest of times, ruining the beginnings of being…
“If I Live Through This, I Want Someone to be Able to See That They Can Survive.”
The country music icon Naomi Judd told ABC News and WebMD contributor, Robin Roberts, that she began to feel what she called “completely debilitating and life-threatening depression” in 2010. Read the entire article. She says she “would come home and not leave the house for 3 weeks and not get outta my pajamas, not practice…
What’s the point of writing?
Sometimes I’ve just got to “write things down.” I write things and leave out details about others. The truth is, I am only writing from my perspective about how I feel as events unfold in my life. It is not fair to bring other people into it because they have a right to their own…
It’s all piling up, I’ve got to get a grip
Here are the clues I’m not on my game. I don’t sleep well. I am back to the waking every hour or so. When I work late and close the building, I am going to bed about 1 AM. I wake at 3, then 4, then 5:30, 6:30, AM or so, and I keep trying…
10 ways I am de-stressing the holidays
Even before acknowledging my depression, the holidays could be stressful. Expectations about what “should” happen can make things uncomfortable at best. When I would go into the holidays without clearly thinking about what I want and need for self-care, the outcomes were generally ok, sometimes good, but unpredictable. This year, I am thinking about the…
Celebrating the little victories brings balance into my life
I clicked on a link and there it was. “We are a spectacular compilation of little victories that exist in the face of odds, not in our favor.” Kate Speer “The Positively Kate Depression-Busting Routine.” Read The entire article. Reading this was exactly what I needed this morning. Kate’s routine begins by celebrating getting out…
