I’m freezing, standing still, no decisive plan to move. And this lack of movement is making me feel angry, frustrated (is that a feeling?) and a touch sad. I know I should be completing projects. The evidence of that is strewn across my desk, is tossed carelessly on the floorboards of my truck, and piled…
Tag: guilt
Can I Tell You the Truth?
Today, I don’t feel like writing. However, I feel I need to write. This is how I am working out my relationship with depression. Through these blog posts, I am creating a balanced life for myself. So, on a day where I do not feel like writing, I also feel guilt. Why shouldn’t I just…
Where is the Proof That “I Am Not Enough?”
Why do I feel “I am NOT enough?” All I need is one more certification and then I can really be effective in my side business. Once I achieve my goal of going to the gym 5 times a week,, then life will be fine. When I have X number of dollars a month coming…
You Will Never Guess the New Name I Learned For My Depression.
Keeping depression out in the open requires constant attention. Ignoring it, or worse, assuming I am “over it,” has dire consequences. As I learn to live with depression, I am learning more and more about how it works. I am learning how secretive it wants to be, and how tempting it can be to follow…
Why didn’t I know it’s a compass for living?
It’s easy to blame others. It’s easy for me to be defensive when someone I love questions my answer. My mind is often three to five steps ahead before the person even gets the entire sentence out of their mouth. I am time traveling and living in the future. It is a competition to get…
I Didn’t Do It. So Why Do I Feel Guilty?
It was mentioned to be informational. It wasn’t directed at me or directly at anyone else for that matter. She was thinking about it because she was drinking from the mug, so she said it. “This mug that I just got as a present must be hand-washed, it shouldn’t go in the dishwasher.” My mind…
