Thankfully, I am not talking about suicide. During my last Psychiatrist visit, my Doctor asked me when the last time was, I had thoughts of suicide. I had to think, before answering. My doctor pointed out that this was an incredibly positive sign. Her patients who know exactly when they had their last suicidal thought…
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A Time to Sow, A Time to Reap – My Unhelpful Thinking Exposed
After 15 months of sowing, I am beyond doubt getting to reap some benefits. Depression is no longer the unknown figure lurking in the wings, trying to lure me with candy and peanuts. There are many tools I use daily to understand the sneaky, devious ways depression exploits situations to entice me to follow its…
Depression Introduced Me to Unhelpful Thinking Styles
It has been 15 months since depression, and I walked into the emergency room. The tools I have learned since that morning are making my day-to-day life more balanced. I am much more consistent in my mood and attitude. Frequently the days do not look daunting and I am able to get up and get…
There’s Too Much Going on Today, No Time for Depression
Today is a day for self-care, there is no time for depression. My Wellbutrin 150 mg and my body seem to be OK with each other. I am six weeks into the new medicine. It has also been two weeks since I completely stopped the Prozac. The transition has been mostly seamless. But there were…
Am I Strong Enough to Publicly Acknowledge my Depression?
Seeing others openly write about their personal struggles, I am feeling like a weakling. Their name is connected to their struggle with whatever is happening to them. I have a good friend who is sharing her thoughts about stress and anxiety. And there are all the celebrities who have come out and shared their stories…
With Depression – 7 Reasons Average is Electrifying
You know your life has changed when average is thrilling. Going five days in a row being average is breathtaking. It has been several years since this has happened. Lately, I have been waking up and then getting up. The internal fight I would have with myself is gone. All the drama I would create…
10 Things I am Thankful for Today As I Face My Depression
10 Things I am Thankful for Today As I Face My Depression I’m alive – Several business associates and my mentor thought at one time that maybe I was not alive. That thought is depressing. Yes, I have a competitive streak that keeps me going. There is still so much to do. My plan is…
I Don’t Like Where This Is Headed
It has now been six days since I stopped taking Prozac. I know that Wellbutrin XL has had 30 days to establish itself in my system. And I am aware that Prozac builds up in the body and that based on the ½ life of my 20 mg dosage, some Prozac is still coursing through…
These Flies Won’t Quit Pestering Me This Morning – Are They Triggers?
My depression and unhelpful thinking is much more subtle than house flies. I’m sitting on the porch, enjoying my first cup of coffee. Then I notice something tickling my leg. Just below my knee is a house fly. It looks up at me with all its eyes as if to say “what?” Then I sweep…
Day Four of Wellbutrin Alone – Doing the Drugs Part VI
Statistically, day 4 is way too early to form an opinion about my change in medicine. I have done nothing but sing the praises of Wellbutrin XL 150 mg. Within a week of beginning the new medication regimen, I was getting out of bed without a struggle. And for the first two weeks, I was…
