I want to take advantage of my employer’s online mental health resources. But depression has made the low bar to entry seem impenetrable. All I need to do to set up an account and access the resources is to supply the access code number issued by my company. I don’t have an access code. I followed the directions, downloaded the app, and can see the end. All I need to … [Read more...] about Depression Has Made the Low Bar to Entry Seem Impassable
Getting stuck in my depression happens a lot. Things on the surface appear to be going well, but underneath the surface, there is a mish-mosh of stuff going on. Oh, the miracle of concealed, high-functioning depression. Of course, the easy way out is to blame my lack of forward momentum on my depression. I can say “If I didn’t have depression, then I would …” But this … [Read more...] about If I Did Not Have Depression, Would I Have Already Written 500 Blog Posts About My Depression? (This is only post #489)
-- Ashley Judd revealed her mother Naomi Judd died by suicide I am so saddened by this news. Regardless of your politics, when you know someone who died by suicide, it is very personal. Having followed her and her daughter’s career as The Judds, I know the story shared by the two. And I have heard the story shared by the tabloids. And back story or not, nothing … [Read more...] about The Lie the Disease Told Her Was So Convincing
From the 20,000-foot view, I can see patterns. As I move away from the abyss, I reach out to friends, family, and passers-by. I am more comfortable speaking with others and garnering opinions about this or that. I am much more able to seek out others as I work on projects. While not gregarious, I am more open and talkative. But as depression works its magic, I begin … [Read more...] about Why Am I Alone Again While My Depression is Winning?
Of course, it could be me and I’m blaming my ups and down on my depression. This can easily lead to the “which came first, the chicken or the egg?” Am I using depression as an excuse for getting to the edge of long-term success and then sabotaging my success? Or is it depression that creeps in and takes away the success I have earned? I feel like the dog who chased cars … [Read more...] about 3 Ways Depression is Keeping My Continued Success Away