Photo by Susan Q Yin on Unsplash I was awake this morning by 5:30 AM and was downstairs before 6:30 AM. Ok, so I went to bed a little after 10 PM last night. It seemed like everyone, including my 2-week-old granddaughter, was ready for bed by then. And I just started playing Candy Crush, so I stayed awake almost an hour going from level 14 to 43. My understanding of … [Read more...] about “If you get up one more time than you fall, you will make it through.” Chinese proverb
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Is Depression Getting Me Close While Keeping Me Far Away?
Photo by USGS on Unsplash Excuse me for saying this. More than once, despite my depression, I have been on the edge of greatness. I have even stepped into the winner's circle a few times in my life. There is the warmth of that glow and the admiration of the crowd that can get a person almost giddy. And the positive endorphins go wild. Taking the gold is what I am always … [Read more...] about Is Depression Getting Me Close While Keeping Me Far Away?
I’m More Than a Plucky Saying on Pinterest ™
Photo by Yu Wang on Unsplash I say that, but I cannot convince myself that I mean it. I could list 100’s of positive assertions, including: Heck, I have even made up one: “I have depression, depression does not have me.” But repeating these mantras day after day, situation after situation goes only so far. In the end, there must be movement, action of some sort. … [Read more...] about I’m More Than a Plucky Saying on Pinterest ™
Is It My Depression Medicine or Am I Just Edgy Today?
Photo by freestocks on Unsplash I know for a fact that something is going on in my body today. So, I was up about 1:30 AM this morning, and everything was fine. I went to the bathroom and climbed back into bed, Then I was up again at 5:00 AM. This is not unusual. I haven’t had a full night’s sleep in years. And getting my medication adjusted to make things more normal … [Read more...] about Is It My Depression Medicine or Am I Just Edgy Today?
Why Can’t I Laugh Out Loud Anymore?
Photo by Tim Mossholder on Unsplash I have asked myself “why can’t I laugh out loud anymore? The whole idea of laughing is not part of my daily routine. In fact, it is not a part of my routine at all these days. I can see that something is funny, but I am not able to laugh, to show an emotion about it. And this is true whether it is a joke being told, or a situation I am … [Read more...] about Why Can’t I Laugh Out Loud Anymore?