It is easy to live in the future. No one to bother you, everything is exactly as you imagine it and the grass is greener on your side of the fence. But I am finding out that living in the future has its costs. It is not free. And the price I am paying may…
Tag: depression and anxiety
101 ideal activities for my new life with depression
As I make progress and hash out some of the underlying issues that have caused my depression to intensify at different times in my life, I am beginning to see the value of visualizing my new future. I asked for professional medical attention 5 months ago because I has lost my focus. I could NOT…
My progress is my own business
How I stack up against others is not the issue. I end up “shoulding” all over myself when I think about others. Either I “should have helped,” “I shouldn’t have helped,” “I should have seen…” or “Why didn’t I see… ” What a cluster. There is no good answer, but there is plenty of pain…
I do the same thing every morning
There seems to be a routine in place. I didn’t realize I was so predictable. It doesn’t matter when I go to bed, I am up between 7 and 730 am. I put a t-shirt on and my slip-on sandals and head to the bathroom. After using the facilities, I take my Prozac. In order…
What are you telling me and why should I care?
This is not how I like to feel. Yet last night, that is exactly what was going through my mind. It wasn’t “tell me more,” it was, “when are you going to shut your pie-hole?” I feel terrible admitting that I had these thoughts swirling through my head as the person was talking. You are…
What am I telling myself?
Sometimes I surprise myself. I can come up with some of the craziest ideas. So, when I hear myself talking, I pay attention to how I am saying things. And sometimes I do not realize what I am saying, or that there may be a healthier, more positive way to say something. I am trying…
Maybe the change in barometric pressure has me feeling down
I cannot put my finger on it. Today has been blah. Not overly bad, not overly good, just blah. My to-do list was long. The self-care part for me was to be outside, on the front porch, drinking my coffee, no cell phone, no laptop, just me and nature. That part of the day was…
I found a new place to be SMART
Now that I am back in the workforce, my schedule doesn’t allow me the flexibility to go to support group meetings whenever I want. Before starting back to a “day job,” I was going to three different support group meetings each week held on three different days. There is the SMART group, focusing on Self-management…
With your encouragement, I have written 100 blog posts
That translates into over 83,000 words about my journey with depression. And the journey is just getting started. Journaling has been one of my self-care activities. Writing about what I am feeling and thinking has been a way for me to work through my depression and “get in touch with my feelings.” This is still…
After reading this, I’m not sure I have Concealed Depression
I was sure it was Concealed Depression. After all, I had hidden it for 43 years before finally facing it. I am just now wrapping my arms around the idea that I have a mental illness, and then I read an article that may change what I call it. That should be exciting. I am…
