My depression is a classic textbook hopelessness. Not the passing, “oh, I will never pass this exam,” or the “why didn’t I get the job?” While I have had many similar thoughts over my lifetime, these would only last a few days. I would get over it and move on. This feeling of hopelessness, in moderation, is a normal part of life. We all have disappointments and situations we … [Read more...] about What Does Your Depression Look Like? Mine Has Three Feelings.
There are so many more things I could be doing right now. How can I decide? That is what I am working on currently. It should make me happy, glad, excited to be wanted by others. To have people I admire say “you could be a big help and contributor to the success of our non-profit, our company, our group." This is very flattering. But at the same time, I am still … [Read more...] about What am I waiting for, an engraved invitation?
I read a few of my early blog posts this morning. Some of them I wrote just days after getting out of the hospital. There is a lot of uncertainty in these early posts. I am feeling my way towards something, but I wasn’t sure what it was. Check out this post I wrote 3 or 4 days after getting out of the hospital. I wish I could sleep. But what I did know, … [Read more...] about Flashback Friday – Was I really like this?
Well, maybe its more of a written record. The best way to create new thought patterns and new behaviors is to practice them. And I found a three-page checklist that will remind me to use my new skills. Taking the time to acknowledge my thoughts, feelings, and actions is a big step. I found a list of emotions. Printing this out, I am better able to describe them. Separating … [Read more...] about Now I’m keeping score