Is it my medication or am I not brave enough to explore my feelings? With 44+ years of practice, I am exceptionally good at feeling numb and blocking out my feelings. Listening to an EBT audiobook on the way to work the other day, the author said some people are overly emotional and in touch with their feelings. Others suppress their feelings and emotions like a bottle of … [Read more...] about Why Am I Choosing Numb Instead of Real Feelings?
It seems very straight-forward. You encounter a problem. You decide what tool you need to repair the problem. Then you use the chosen tool and fix the problem. Problem solved. This works great for when the lawnmower is sputtering and won’t start or your zipper in your coat is stuck and needs fixing. Applying this to my mental health issues is a lot … [Read more...] about I Have the Tools, Why am I Not Using Them?
There are other, more crude ways of expressing this. The point is there are times when you need to do the right thing. And doing the right thing may be uncomfortable, or even feel impossible. But it is still what needs to be done. Knowing that this is the thing to do doesn’t make doing it any easier. I am dealing with two very intense situations right now. Either … [Read more...] about Sometimes You Must Put On “Big Boy” Pants
Searching the internet for a picture of “not getting out of bed,” I found that Dr. Seuss had written about this. So maybe it is a “thing.” Not Thing 1 or Thing 2, but a thing. It seems almost everyone has trouble at times wanting to get out of bed. With the warm covers drawn around us, our head on the pillow, climbing out into the cold air is not appealing. On top of … [Read more...] about That didn’t last long, now I’m not getting out of bed
This is the question I am grappling with right now. This idea was presented in the training I am doing with SMART Recovery. Yes, I want to be a meeting facilitator someday, but right now I am still working on me. Seeing this concept in black and white, has given me a renewed sense of hope about my future. The Transtheoretical Model (also called the Stages of Change … [Read more...] about Is it possible to be “recovered” rather than forever in “recovery?”