Depression makes it almost impossible for me to seek help for MDD. And as I finally begin to address it and seek out professional treatment, the paperwork and insurance have me circling the drain. Fresh out of 5 East last year, I knew very quickly that my insurance did not cover all mental health issues….
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4th of July in a “This Time It Will be Different” Country
“This time it will be different” was what I told myself about depression for over 40 years. I support free speech and the right to congregate and express grievances. Being a Baby Boomer, I have marched and chanted “make love, not war.” I know firsthand the injustices citizens can be subjected to by police and…
Super Saturday – Maybe I Did Need Some Time Off
I have gotten a myriad of things done today. It is day two of my mini-vacation and I am more relaxed than yesterday. In fact, yesterday I was scattered all over the place. Today, my list and my priorities are more aligned. Having purchased the tomato cages yesterday, putting them around the plants in the…
Have I Fallen Off the Recovery Wagon?
Or maybe I am still on it, but I am not driving it? Whatever it is, it feels unproductive. I’ve read a lot of articles recently by medical professionals who say it is OK to feel anxious right now. Afterall, pandemics have not come around too often. So, they say don’ beat yourself up if…
Memorial Day Festival is Canceled? How Is That Possible?
Canceled implies something was going to happen, but now it is not. For example, “school is canceled because of heavy snow.” This is clear. School was going to take place, but now it will not because of the snow. Small towns all over the country have canceled Memorial Day. No parade, no floats, and not…
If I Only Had 10 Days to Live
A year ago, my focus was on Major Depressive Disorder. Would I figure it out? Was there life for me going forward? Could I see past the wall that I was up against? Although at that moment, I could not see the big picture, somewhere in my anatomy, I knew I would make it. Remember,…
Inconceivable! A Freeze Warning in Central Virginia in Mid-May
Is that why the unexpected is unexpected? Dealing with this unexpected change in temperature reminds me that life is not straight-forward. Yet here I am figuring out how to get all my geraniums and Boston ferns inside. And the climbing Mandevilla vine is already in a huge planter on the porch with a trellis attached…
Pandemic Closings Aside, My Depression Recovery is Still Open For Business
I am having trouble managing my thoughts and feelings with so many of my resources closed. I’m blaming my lack of motivation on not having face to face meetings. And my recovery feels stalled. In SMART Recovery, I have learned that at the heart of recovery lies their 4-Point Program. My journey has taken me…
Cinco de Mayo – Another Casualty of Coronavirus?
Today we are encouraged to meet and celebrate. Even if our roots are not Mexican, for a few hours, we are all Mexican. Today is marked with gatherings of people. Those of Mexican descent and all the rest of us wanna be’s for the day. Today is a day of celebration. Cinco de Mayo has always…
What Happened to the Good Old Days?
I understand I have depression and the world is experiencing a pandemic. My new normal is to live a balanced life with depression. I expected up days and down days, that is life even without depression. The only thing that stays the same is that nothing stays the same. But that thinking can be countered…
