Today I am scattered. There is so much on my mind, I am having trouble slowing things down. Getting to the most important tasks is what I need to focus on. I have a list in my head, which would be easier to manage if I had written it down. But I can’t seem to…
Tag: coping strategies
Flashback Friday – Was I really like this?
I read a few of my early blog posts this morning. Some of them I wrote just days after getting out of the hospital. There is a lot of uncertainty in these early posts. I am feeling my way towards something, but I wasn’t sure what it was. Check out this post I wrote 3…
Is this what getting to know you feels like?
For a moment, I was thinking about what you need out of this conversation. Although I always told myself that I have the other person’s interest at heart whenever I interact, the feeling I had yesterday was new. I grew up with “treat others as you would like to be treated,” and “a person’s true…
Hurry up and wait
That’s how I am beginning to feel. As I get a better understanding of depression and my responsibilities for keeping it under control, I am slowing down. This is new to me. Being very competitive, I am always measuring things. How many steps to the top entrance to the building, how many tiles on the…
You won’t believe where I have been
I took my time and read all 37 of my blog posts, back to day one when I came home from the hospital. What a journey already. I sound so bad, so sad, so out of it, on day one. And then I look at my recent writings and see how far I have come….
Did you know I have guns?
Well, right now I don’t. What I have is an indentation in the carpet in my closet where the gun safe was. I have an empty space on my shelf in the closet where the canvas bag of ammo was. All thats left is a cloth bag with a turkey call in it and a…
How do I tell people I have depression? Or should I?
I have been struggling with how to share what my life has been like for the past four weeks. There are friends, relatives, and business associates that I want to tell. My dilemma is how to tell them, how much to tell them when to tell them. Is my need to tell them a way…
Now I’m keeping score
Well, maybe its more of a written record. The best way to create new thought patterns and new behaviors is to practice them. And I found a three-page checklist that will remind me to use my new skills. Taking the time to acknowledge my thoughts, feelings, and actions is a big step. I found a…
Will everyday be the same?
I miss the energy. I miss the interaction. I miss the challenges that come with going to a day job. What in the world was I thinking? Sit in my home office in front of a computer monitor and write for others? Not have daily interaction with groups of people. I face the same tedious…
