Two things are on my mind this morning. My ability to get out of bed in the morning and a mysterious charge to my checking account. Sometime after I went to bed last night, I was charged $200 for a “Promo-Kit.” The time was 11:20 PM and I was in bed, asleep. I discovered it this morning as I reviewed my account. I guess I still have some “Jersey” in me, for I look at … [Read more...] about If I Am Not in Control, Am I Out of Control?
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What do you mean I’m blaming others?
How could he even say that? That I am blaming my depression for my actions. That I am making excuses for my actions and not being responsible. That’s not even close to what I am thinking. I am a mess today. My therapy session has opened all kinds of feelings, emotions, and who the hell knows what else. And worse, I see the next session as an extension of today. More … [Read more...] about What do you mean I’m blaming others?
How can you be in control and have depression?
Being in control is powerful. Feeling helpless, not having control can be debilitating and unhealthy. I have been on both sides of the aisle lately. Sometimes I have felt in control and at other times have allowed myself to feel helpless, to be the victim in the situation. Linking my control issues to depression has been a real eye-opener. Sleeping habits seem to be … [Read more...] about How can you be in control and have depression?
First time on a plane
Ok, so it’s the first time I will have flown since being in the hospital for depression. I am an avid adventurer and have been flying for over 50 years. I remember when people smoked on a plane. I remember pre 9/11 security and when we called flight attendants “stewardesses.” Giving up control to the pilot and crew has never been an issue for me. Now that doesn’t mean … [Read more...] about First time on a plane