Well, right now I don’t. What I have is an indentation in the carpet in my closet where the gun safe was. I have an empty space on my shelf in the closet where the canvas bag of ammo was. All thats left is a cloth bag with a turkey call in it and a replacement peep sight for my compound bow. But no compound bow, and no guns. The morning I walked into the hospital; my focus … [Read more...] about Did you know I have guns?
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Why Do I Double-Check Before Swallowing?
Why do I look twice? What is it about my daily Prozac that has me checking and then checking again? First, I take the plastic prescription bottle and read it. I verify that it is the Prozac, 20 mg. I read the entire label, which gives the generic name, then it says “generic for Prozac.” Once I am sure it is the correct medicine, I open the container. It should be obvious … [Read more...] about Why Do I Double-Check Before Swallowing?
Why Can’t I Open This Letter?
It came two days ago. And I have still not opened it. When I took the letter out of the mailbox, the handwriting looked familiar. After that, I noticed no return address. I was thinking, what is this all about? Did I fill out a rebate form or something? Why does this look so familiar? I’m sitting in the cab of the truck, with the window rolled down. I am at the same … [Read more...] about Why Can’t I Open This Letter?
Why am I labeling myself?
This is not what I do. I have made a conscious effort, day after day, week after week, month after month not to call myself names. I have used positive self-talk and steered clear of labeling myself in any way that isn’t positive and helpful. So why in the past 24 hours have I caught myself doing it? Twice. This is new and is irritating, foolish, disappointing, and … [Read more...] about Why am I labeling myself?
Now I’m keeping score
Well, maybe its more of a written record. The best way to create new thought patterns and new behaviors is to practice them. And I found a three-page checklist that will remind me to use my new skills. Taking the time to acknowledge my thoughts, feelings, and actions is a big step. I found a list of emotions. Printing this out, I am better able to describe them. Separating … [Read more...] about Now I’m keeping score