I can’t believe those were the first words out of my mouth. The day had really ended well despite taking three hours to drive in the heavy, wet snow to work. It turns out the winter storm tracked east, at about the same speed as I was traveling east. I kept thinking it was going…
Tag: concealed depression
Here I come depression, it’s time you moved along
We are four days into a new decade. This, to me, is a bigger deal than just starting a new year. There is a responsibility to the new decade. I want to make sure I am prepared and focused. You only get this chance once every 10 years. I don’t want to waste this. I…
Getting up is still an issue
I thought with the new year, things would change. My attitude towards getting out of bed in the morning has not been moved by the beginning of a new decade. While not quite as dramatic as going from 1999 to the year 2,000, a new decade, to me, is a chance to reevaluate my life…
I just want to get out of bed
Why is this so darn hard? What is it that is keeping me from doing this? I set my alarm with the most optimistic of intentions and fall asleep. But something goes sideways between the time I go to bed and the time I had picked to get up. And I hit the snooze alarm….
How could I miss a dose? – Doing the drugs Part III
I have gone through this before. In fact, that is why I got the seven-day pill caddy. On Saturday, after I take my Prozac, I fill the tray for the following week. In each section, I add two 20 Mg. Prozac pills, giving me a clear record for each day. When I first get up…
Can I really unplug?
I know this works with my computer, but applying unplugging to my own self-care seems a stretch. I don’t have time to try it today. But I will try it tomorrow and let you know how it works! READ: Our lives are about making choices
New attitude, new focus, new desk location?
Right now, I have moving my desk on my list with a lower priority than scheduling my colonoscopy. But the truth is, each time I move my desk, I get a renewed sense of purpose. The actions of cleaning, organizing, and then actually moving the desk gives me a “fresh start.” And happily, I have…
Depression isn’t a choice
It is easy to see how even I can view depression as a scam people perpetrate on themselves and others. Break your leg, it is obvious. Toothache? We all know it’s time to go to the dentist. No energy for months at a time, forcing yourself to do what you must to get through the…
It doesn’t feel like “7 more shopping days” until Christmas
This year, getting in the holiday spirit is not automatic. Traditionally, I have been all over the holidays. The traditions, getting together with family, getting out decorations has been enjoyable. When the kids were smaller, they helped fuel the excitement of the season. Christmas is on autopilot, and I am going through the motions. There…
Today I wish I were sad
That would be a step up from where I am right now. The harder I work on my recovery, the further behind I feel. Now part of this may be the time of year. I know about S.A.D. and what happens when you do not get enough sunlight. This could certainly be a factor in…
