My flight leaves at 1 PM today. It is almost 8;30 AM. I am usually packed the night before, ready to go. But my clean laundry is still in the laundry room. I did get my suitcase out of the closet yesterday and put my shaving kit on top of the suitcase. They are both…
Tag: concealed depression
Celebrities are admitting they have depression. I am not alone!
I subscribe to some pretty awesome blogs. I have learned a lot about depression and mental illness in general from these talented writers. Their new blog posts appear in my in box daily. Yesterday, my jaw dropped as I read the headline for a new blog post by Chelsea Owens. Celebrities with Mental Health Issues:…
Is this what getting to know you feels like?
For a moment, I was thinking about what you need out of this conversation. Although I always told myself that I have the other persons interest at heart whenever I interact, the feeling I had yesterday was new. I grew up with “treat others as you would like to be treated,” and “a person’s true…
First time on a plane
Ok, so it’s the first time I will have flown since being in the hospital for depression. I am an avid adventurer and have been flying for over 50 years. I remember when people smoked on a plane. I remember pre 9/11 security and when we called flight attendants “stewardesses.” Giving up control to the…
Quote of the day
No time to write today. I had my annual physical this morning. EKG was good, they drew blood and I peed in a cup. My blood pressure was good and I do not have a fever, but it has been ten years since my last colonoscopy, so my Doctor is going to schedule that. Now…
Am I asking the right question?
It is easy to live in the future. No one to bother you, everything is exactly as you imagine it and the grass is greener on your side of the fence. But I am finding out that living in the future has its costs. It is not free. And the price I am paying may…
Use these tools to see if you are part of the club
I have been collecting Mental Health Resources for months. Anything that will help me understand depression and how to live with it. Recently, I discovered that there are tools available to help people determine; if they might be depressed, or have some of the symptoms of depression. Here is the link to my page of…
101 ideal activities for my new life with depression
As I make progress and hash out some of the underlying issues that have caused my depression to intensify at different times in my life, I am beginning to see the value of visualizing my new future. I asked for professional medical attention 5 months ago because I has lost my focus. I could NOT…
Why did I think that? I thought I was getting better.
Why do I suddenly feel the need to explain myself? I am almost five months out from my hospital stay for depression. That is almost five months of living with depression, of saying the word depression out loud, and keeping depression out in the open where I can see it. As I wrote the sentence…
I cannot get it back
I am so angry this morning. I cannot believe some of the decisions I have made in the past 43 years. It is infuriating to think that I have thrown away different opportunities that would have made significant changes in my life. My plan as I write this is to be mad at depression for…
