Thankfully, I am not talking about suicide. During my last Psychiatrist visit, my Doctor asked me when the last time was, I had thoughts of suicide. I had to think, before answering. My doctor pointed out that this was an incredibly positive sign. Her patients who know exactly when they had their last suicidal thought…
Tag: concealed depression
A Time to Sow, A Time to Reap – My Unhelpful Thinking Exposed
After 15 months of sowing, I am beyond doubt getting to reap some benefits. Depression is no longer the unknown figure lurking in the wings, trying to lure me with candy and peanuts. There are many tools I use daily to understand the sneaky, devious ways depression exploits situations to entice me to follow its…
There’s Too Much Going on Today, No Time for Depression
Today is a day for self-care, there is no time for depression. My Wellbutrin 150 mg and my body seem to be OK with each other. I am six weeks into the new medicine. It has also been two weeks since I completely stopped the Prozac. The transition has been mostly seamless. But there were…
Am I Strong Enough to Publicly Acknowledge my Depression?
Seeing others openly write about their personal struggles, I am feeling like a weakling. Their name is connected to their struggle with whatever is happening to them. I have a good friend who is sharing her thoughts about stress and anxiety. And there are all the celebrities who have come out and shared their stories…
With Depression – 7 Reasons Average is Electrifying
You know your life has changed when average is thrilling. Going five days in a row being average is breathtaking. It has been several years since this has happened. Lately, I have been waking up and then getting up. The internal fight I would have with myself is gone. All the drama I would create…
These Flies Won’t Quit Pestering Me This Morning – Are They Triggers?
My depression and unhelpful thinking is much more subtle than house flies. I’m sitting on the porch, enjoying my first cup of coffee. Then I notice something tickling my leg. Just below my knee is a house fly. It looks up at me with all its eyes as if to say “what?” Then I sweep…
Day Four of Wellbutrin Alone – Doing the Drugs Part VI
Statistically, day 4 is way too early to form an opinion about my change in medicine. I have done nothing but sing the praises of Wellbutrin XL 150 mg. Within a week of beginning the new medication regimen, I was getting out of bed without a struggle. And for the first two weeks, I was…
Getting Help for Depression When You Have Depression
Depression makes it almost impossible for me to seek help for MDD. And as I finally begin to address it and seek out professional treatment, the paperwork and insurance have me circling the drain. Fresh out of 5 East last year, I knew very quickly that my insurance did not cover all mental health issues….
My Appointment Over, It’s Goodbye Prozac, Hello Wellbutrin
Prozac has been my friend for over a year. But in higher doses, it possibly was the reason I couldn’t get out of bed in the morning. Going from 20 to 40 mg last November, sent me on a journey lasting almost 6 months. And in the end, I finally found relief from the loss…
Just Me and My Depression
If I am “cured” of depression, who will be my friend? Boy, that sounds terrible as I read what I just wrote. And there are several things that jump out at me about that statement. First, I know I will never be cured. A broken leg heals, but that is not the same. Researchers are…
