Doing the drugs, lately, I have been hoping that the "hard to get started in the morning feeling" will go away. I know when that hard to get started in the morning feeling is back, something is amiss. One or two days is not the end of the world. I had one day several weeks ago, but I know I had done quite a bit of work around the property. And the daytime temperature was … [Read more...] about That “Hard to Get Started in the Morning Feeling” is Back – Doing the Drugs Part VII
On the surface, the term self-care seems straight-forward. I Googled® the definition just to be sure my assessment of self-care was in line with general notions. Based on this definition, I feel I understand what the idea of self-care is all about. self-care So why do I struggle with self-care? Last year, as I first learned how to think about and practice … [Read more...] about What Makes Me Feel Obliged to Struggle with Self-Care?
Asking for professional medical help was one of the hardest things I have ever done. I started writing the morning after I was released from the hospital. In 5 North, I was diagnosed with major depressive disorder, with suicidal ideation. Feeling up against the wall, seeking professional medical advice was the least hard of the three choices I felt I had. Choice #1 was to … [Read more...] about After Getting Help for Myself, I Can Now Share with Others
The change triangle is becoming my go-to tool helping me to understand what I am feeling. Feelings. And the core emotions I have so fastidiously defended against. I spent 43+ years putting my defenses up so that I would not come in contact with my core emotions. Even now when I do this, the result is me using inhibitory emotions to block my true (core) emotions. The human … [Read more...] about Learning The 3 Parts of My Change Triangle
I can’t believe those were the first words out of my mouth. The day had really ended well despite taking three hours to drive in the heavy, wet snow to work. It turns out the winter storm tracked east, at about the same speed as I was traveling east. I kept thinking it was going to turn to rain, but that never happened. There were 15 accidents between my house and … [Read more...] about What a Terrible Thing to Say