If I sit on the porch in the morning and don’t put the bird feeders out right away, the birds land on the empty frame and stare at me, waiting to be fed. Now I understand that I am projecting emotions for them when I tell you they are looking at me and saying, “put…
Tag: anxiety
My Mind is Quiet This Morning
I’m not sure I would describe me as being at peace, but I am calm. Being able to get up without negotiating with myself had been a huge step. The changes in medication must be the answer. While I don’t go back to my Psychiatrist for a few more weeks, my ability to get out…
Pandemic Closings Aside, My Depression Recovery is Still Open For Business
I am having trouble managing my thoughts and feelings with so many of my resources closed. I’m blaming my lack of motivation on not having face to face meetings. And my recovery feels stalled. In SMART Recovery, I have learned that at the heart of recovery lies their 4-Point Program. My journey has taken me…
What Happened to the Good Old Days?
I understand I have depression and the world is experiencing a pandemic. My new normal is to live a balanced life with depression. I expected up days and down days, that is life even without depression. The only thing that stays the same is that nothing stays the same. But that thinking can be countered…
Did I Miss My Anniversary?
No, I did not miss my wedding anniversary. I know that date and will be forever grateful for it. As we approach 40 years of marriage, there is so much to be thankful for. But that is not for a few more months. We have marked this occasion together every year since our first. But…
I’m Doing What I Can Right Now
Yet, I have the feeling I should be doing more. Not a healthy feeling, but a feeling none the less. There are a couple of tax items I need to put together. I spoke to my account and confirmed the extended deadlines, which is helpful this year. Even during my deep depression last year, I…
A Day Working in the Yard has Helped me Dust the Cobwebs Out Of My Mind.
Today, it almost seems like everything is right with the world. I got to spend the morning with my wife. First hanging out in the living room, talking about what to do with the day. Then doing some grocery shopping, picking up a prescription all the while maintaining “social distancing.” Then I focused on mowing…
Even Non-Essential Citizens Need Self-Care
Gov. Northam forcing certain non-essential businesses in Virginia to close Read the article here It is easy to get caught up in the Corona Virus Pandemic. The uncertainty it is causing has jolted the financial markets, caused people to horde toilet paper and Ramen Noodles and put most people on edge. Everyone is learning two…
Is Sheltering In Place the Answer?
A global pandemic makes my depression seem like small potatoes. I have fought this for over 43 years, and the last bout finally landed me in the hospital. Yet, depression and I have not parted ways. We still share the same space. My cranium is its cranium, my frontal cortex is its frontal cortex. It’s…
And Just Like That, it is Gone!
Auto-recovery is an urban legend. Well, at least for me today it is. Having finished a page and a half of my latest blog post, I pissed off my laptop somehow and Word closed. Historically, when I re-open Word, there is a list of auto-recovery documents on the left side of the screen. From there,…
