It’s like a huge weight I am dragging around. If I don’t think about it, it’s still there. But if I start thinking about it, the weight just intensifies. Much of my frustration about the morning is centered around the painfully slow response of my laptop. It has taken me over 10 minutes to pen these few sentences. Should I purchase a new laptop or continue to seek out … [Read more...] about Why Am I Anxious About Being Anxious?
I went to my psychiatrist because I felt things were beginning to slide. Having months of relief from the crippling actions of depression, things had plateaued. I noticed that things were only OK. Not bad, not great, not really anything but OK. Each day was beginning to be the same. There was this feeling that I wasn’t making progress, that I was stalled, and she set up … [Read more...] about Day Five – I Think Adding Prozac Is Helping
Trying to measure my anxiety may make me anxious. Understanding how I am feeling today is not a bad thing. Then looking at the answer compared to how I was feeling five days ago can be helpful. I can judge by this quick exercise whether the new medicine is working. This morning, I am leaning towards “less anxious.” Now I still have a list of things to do today. I have … [Read more...] about Will I Be Less Anxious Today?
High-functioning depression, that’s me. I can fake it like the best of them. Hiding my true feelings is an art form for me. There are so many ways I can tell you “I’m fine, I'm excited, I’m darn glad to be here.” In some ways, this is always true. Being anywhere is always preferable to the alternative. But being myself in every situation is difficult. And letting … [Read more...] about With Depression, Am I Ready To Tell the Truth to My Psychiatrist? – Part I
Learning positive coping statements for depression left me wondering if they really work? Is that whole mind over matter idea a "real thing?" A coping statement is a way to frame our attitude towards an event. Very often, we cannot control the event. Not having control, for me, is a big deal. I begin to feel a bit anxious. If I cannot rely on myself to be in control, I begin … [Read more...] about Will Reliable Positive Coping Statements For Depression Work?