I’m spilling out my heart into a word document on my laptop when it closes shop and the paragraphs I have written are lost. OK, so I should be saving as I go. And I should have expected something to happen since the laptop was spending more time buffering than time letting me be productive. I’ve got a big to-do list for today. I don’t have time for my laptop to be a prima … [Read more...] about Can I Smash My Laptop This Morning?
I knew living with depression was not going to be a cakewalk. There are challenges and setbacks, successes and snags in my recovery. Now I find out that there are response and remission. I know I was thinking of my recovery as remission. How naive is that? Speaking with my Peer Advocate today, I heard the term residual depression for the first time. Until today, I did … [Read more...] about 28 weeks into recovery, now I have residual depression?
This is not how I like to feel. Yet last night, that is exactly what was going through my mind. It wasn’t “tell me more,” it was, “when are you going to shut your pie-hole?” I feel terrible admitting that I had these thoughts swirling through my head as the person was talking. You are going to spend 5 minutes telling me this? How long is five minutes in dog years? … [Read more...] about What are you telling me and why should I care?