Imagine saying this out loud: “My last bottom was the deepest, darkest, most horrible place I have ever been.” Yet that was me last year. Reading through some of my older writing, I came across this line. It reached out and stunned me. How could I have written that? I had no idea I was that bad. It’s no wonder I sought professional medical attention. Reading that again … [Read more...] about I’m Glad I Did Not Know How Bad I Was
What depression has cost me
I Found Unhelpful Thinking In My Fortune Cookie
Treat Yourself With The Same Dignity and Respect You Give Others. I do a very poor job in how I treat myself and this fortune reminds me of that. Now I wouldn’t call this a fortune even though it came out of a fortune cookie. It is more of an affirmation or a positive saying or words to live by. Maybe the fortune is in living that life where you value yourself, even as … [Read more...] about I Found Unhelpful Thinking In My Fortune Cookie
Why Do I Think in Terms of All or Nothing?
I tell myself I avoid drama, and yet many of my waking hours are spent creating all or nothing situations in my head. I interrupt someone and get a short response. Immediately, my mind goes to the worst possible meaning of that response. They don’t love me. They're mad at me for something. What did I do? And silence is even worse. My depression uses silence to get … [Read more...] about Why Do I Think in Terms of All or Nothing?
Two Days in A Row, Am I Dreaming?
Once again, I woke up and I got up. No drama, no negotiating with myself about whether to get up or stay in bed a little longer. You don’t know how relieved I am to skip the anxiety and worry about something as simple as getting out of bed. Lately, I can either roll over and grab a few more winks or get up. Now, the bartering and indecision are gone. READ: I just want to … [Read more...] about Two Days in A Row, Am I Dreaming?
Concealed Depression is my day to day life
The most important thing to remember about concealed depression is you will not feel much of anything. But that’s OK. Feelings get in the way and muddy the waters. Facts are easier to deal with and don’t have an agenda. Feelings and emotions can take time to sort out and slow down the process. My ability to open myself up and share feelings has been muted by my … [Read more...] about Concealed Depression is my day to day life