I clicked on a link and there it was. “We are a spectacular compilation of little victories that exist in the face of odds, not in our favor.” Kate Speer “The Positively Kate Depression-Busting Routine.” Read The entire article. Reading this was exactly what I needed this morning. Kate’s routine begins by celebrating getting out…
Category: What depression has cost me
300 million people around the world have depression* and I am one of them
The statistics are compelling. What’s the first thing most of us do if we want to find out more about something? Google it. Every two seconds somebody Googles ‘depression’ in the UK. While anxiety disorders are the most common mental illness in the U.S., depression isn’t far behind. The most recent depression statistics are: According…
Why is it so much harder when you have choices?
With concealed depression, everything was about work. It was a place to run to, to be distracted from the prospect of having to live in the present moment. Work, in its various forms, has been a place for me to hide. A place to confirm in my head that I have value. It’s my comfort…
11 Things Depression has done, and it’s only Wednesday
Depression can be sneaky. It has infested itself in my being and has taken up residence in my body as if it belongs there. I am angry this morning. And as I think about why I am angry; I am recognizing things that are happening that I must learn to think differently about. Living with…
Am I asking the right question?
It is easy to live in the future. No one to bother you, everything is exactly as you imagine it and the grass is greener on your side of the fence. But I am finding out that living in the future has its costs. It is not free. And the price I am paying may…
101 ideal activities for my new life with depression
As I make progress and hash out some of the underlying issues that have caused my depression to intensify at different times in my life, I am beginning to see the value of visualizing my new future. I asked for professional medical attention 5 months ago because I has lost my focus. I could NOT…
I cannot get it back
I am so angry this morning. I cannot believe some of the decisions I have made in the past 43 years. It is infuriating to think that I have thrown away different opportunities that would have made significant changes in my life. My plan as I write this is to be mad at depression for…
I want to say thank you for yesterday.
Focusing on the one thing I could control, I decided to look at my attitude towards the weekend. On Friday, I had decided to understand how I needed to think if I was going to relax and enjoy the day. It was clear that I normally would be stressed out about not doing things I…
With your encouragement, I have written 100 blog posts
That translates into over 83,000 words about my journey with depression. And the journey is just getting started. Journaling has been one of my self-care activities. Writing about what I am feeling and thinking has been a way for me to work through my depression and “get in touch with my feelings.” This is still…
Is this really how I am seen?
Here are quotes I wrote down from my recent therapy session that included my key supporters. Their observations and view of me include: “Inconsistency of saying one thing and doing another” “Actions build untrust” “Doesn’t have a consistent story” “It’s hard for me to find firm ground to stand on, too trust” Whether or not…
