No, I did not miss my wedding anniversary. I know that date and will be forever grateful for it. As we approach 40 years of marriage, there is so much to be thankful for. But that is not for a few more months. We have marked this occasion together every year since our first. But…
Category: The cost of success
Does Wearing a Mask Mean I am Afraid?
It’s not that I don’t think COVID 19 is real. Unlike COVID 19, I spent years concealing my disease, working around it as a person with high-functioning depression. My relationship with depression has been an evolutionary process. As I learn more about how it works, I can see where I have bought into depression madness…
I Don’t want to be Closed Off
Non-essential businesses are closing. The mall attached to where I work is closed. It is an eerie sight. With gates down, access is limited to the occasional security guard making the rounds. And at first, there were custodians cleaning the floors and seating surfaces. At another local mall, Chick-Fil-A has a tent set up near…
Should I be Worried?
It would be so easy to go down that rabbit hole. “Oh, whoa is me.” But many questions come to mind. Are these things I should be worrying about? How are you coping with Covid 19? How can I do what I need to do when the world is facing Covid19? Will I get it?…
People Thought I Was Dead
That is a very sobering thought. Six weeks after getting out of the hospital, I finally contacted my mentor. He had been checking the obituaries. And while I had stayed in touch with another person for over two years, I feel off the grid last summer and stopped responding to her emails. I had the…
“Focus on the Possibilities for Success, Not on the Potential for Failure.”
Napoleon Hill said that. A year has almost passed since I walked into the emergency room and was diagnosed with Major Depressive Disorder. I was so numb, that it was months before what that meant sunk in. Even now, while the diagnosis makes sense, I am still learning coping skills and tools to live a…
A new month, a new outlook – Parts 1 and 2
It could be the start of something new. It could also be the continuation of the same old thing. What really matters, is how I think about it. How do I frame the things I can control? If I am focused and thoughtful, I can make this a great month. That’s not to say that…
Success minus failures equal me
I suppose this is the sum of each of us. We all have our moments of brilliance. For some, it could be discovering a cure for a disease. For others, it’s the moment after spending hours making a repair, we hit the key and the car starts. What defines our successes can change depending on…
The Circle of Life Sucks – Digging an Animal Grave Part II
The inevitable happened today. Ashes to ashes, dust to dust. He was over 15 years old and had lived a charmed life for a cat. Although he never had offspring, he had a family that he loved and that loved him. He was a hunter, a birdwatcher, and he loved to show his dominance in…
I’m Still Breaking Up With Depression
It turns out it is not “one and done.” There is a lot of work in breaking up with depression. “It’s not you, it’s me” comes to mind. I know how cliché that is, but it is a way of breaking up without trying to hurt anyone’s feelings. My goal is to keep depression out…
