Rain had been in the forecast for a few days now. It started in the middle of the night, and it has been raining hard off and on ever since. As the cloudsthickened and the first light peeked over the horizon, Parker Mountain disappeared into the fog. Thishappens from time to time, as storms fill the small valley. Trying to write on my laptop this morning is more … [Read more...] about It’s Not Depression Today, It’s Just Severe Weather.
Some days I feel like myself
Merry Christmas: I’m Awake, But My Feelings Didn’t Make It
It’s 7:35 AM on Christmas morning; I’m up and have been for over an hour. We drove 1 ½ hour to visit my father-in-law on Christmas Eve. Both of my wife’s sisters were there, along with one’s fiancé. The pre-dinner treats were delicious and the bone-in rib roast with vegetables was very tasty. My wife brought gluten-free dinner rolls that melted in your mouth. My … [Read more...] about Merry Christmas: I’m Awake, But My Feelings Didn’t Make It
I Cannot Wait to See my Grandson
Covid and the pandemic suck. Living 12 hours away, the first ten months of my grandson’s life, we only saw him on zoom. Finally, the stars aligned, the vaccines were all administered, and we traveled to see him. Now he is coming here. It is only a long weekend, but I am so ready to spend time with him again. He has gone from infant to toddler in 4 months. Even on zoom, … [Read more...] about I Cannot Wait to See my Grandson
Today I Am Putting My Depression in Perspective
I just want a day off from pushing the rock up the hill. Is that too much to ask? Day after day after day I wake up and stare at the same freaky rock. Some days, I admit, that rock looks like a huge boulder and the hill look like a vertical wall of solid granite. These are my “half-dome” days, when the hill looks to me like Half Dome at Yosemite National Park in … [Read more...] about Today I Am Putting My Depression in Perspective
Sensational Ways Depression Sometimes Wins
Some days, there is no fairy tale ending. I wish it weren’t so. But depression and I are locked in a tug of war. Sometimes I can pull harder. And often depression pulls the hardest. Depression and I have been engaged in this tug of war for over 40 years. You would think I would understand the way it works by now. And the more tools I collect to deal with depression, the … [Read more...] about Sensational Ways Depression Sometimes Wins