Photo by Dariusz Sankowski on Unsplash How do I know that the next page is a new chapter? Mostly because I am writing this chapter. And I have written every chapter of my life so far. However, many, if not every, chapter has its share of ghostwriters. And for the awards ceremony, depression is nominated for a supporting role. Had I not been genetically pre-disposed to … [Read more...] about This Is the Beginning of The Next Chapter in My Life with Depression
Guilt and Shame
I Don’t Laugh Out Loud Anymore Because of My Depression
Photo by Dan Cook on Unsplash And I am not laughing about not laughing. I just read an article that listed 16 Things People Don't Realize You Are Doing Because You Are Emotionally Numb. And of those 16, 3 jumped out to me as things I am doing a lot. Well, I have been doing them a lot lately. And these issues appear to have their roots in my depression. Click below to … [Read more...] about I Don’t Laugh Out Loud Anymore Because of My Depression
I Feel So Guilty for Not Doing More Today
Photo by Kaysha on Unsplash My checklist has items on it I did not complete. I have only checked off three. But I also policed the front and back yards for dog poo and then mowed the backyard inside of the fence. Neither of these was on my list. And did I mention I also trimmed the winter grass from around the blueberry bushes? This was not on the list, either. What … [Read more...] about I Feel So Guilty for Not Doing More Today
I Took a Self-Care Day and I Don’t Feel Guilty
Photo by Content Pixie on Unsplash The whole idea of being outside for a self-care day was exciting. And then to get to work on outdoor projects, was for me, the best self-care imaginable. As the day unfolded, I expected that I would think going outside and working on things that needed doing would create a conflict for me. After all, I had indoor projects that needed … [Read more...] about I Took a Self-Care Day and I Don’t Feel Guilty
I’m Gaining Weight – Can I Blame My Depression?
Photo by Total Shape on Unsplash 172.5 pounds is where I bottomed out after returning from Africa. And if I had let the scale finish this morning, it would have read 185 and something. But as soon as I saw the 185, I jumped off the scale and did not let it finish and lock in a weight. After all, if it’s not in writing, it's not official. Yet my body can tell that it’s … [Read more...] about I’m Gaining Weight – Can I Blame My Depression?