Photo by Total Shape on Unsplash 172.5 pounds is where I bottomed out after returning from Africa. And if I had let the scale finish this morning, it would have read 185 and something. But as soon as I saw the 185, I jumped off the scale and did not let it finish and lock in a weight. After all, if it’s not in writing, it's not official. Yet my body can tell that it’s … [Read more...] about I’m Gaining Weight – Can I Blame My Depression?
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My Depression Has Me Catastrophizing Instead of Fixing My Sleep Problem
Photo by Rehina Sultanova on Unsplash I have only been using the CPAP machine for two days, but already the morning fog is lifting. It’s possible that CPAP may have helped me a few years ago. But then, the issue ended up being my medication. Once I switched from Prozac to Wellbutrin, I was able to get out of bed and meet the day. I am still so thankful for my new … [Read more...] about My Depression Has Me Catastrophizing Instead of Fixing My Sleep Problem
Why Am I Having Trouble Getting Out of Bed Again?
Photo by Annie Spratt on Unsplash I tried to shift the problem to the new medication that my general practitioner has started me on. This seemed logical as the getting-out-of-bed problem began shortly after I began taking generic Flomax. The reason I am taking that would require an entire blog post of its own. But here I am, and I am trying to understand why I cannot get … [Read more...] about Why Am I Having Trouble Getting Out of Bed Again?
I Feel That I Am Missing Something Important
Photo by Pierre Bamin on Unsplash Is it just the time of year, or am I beginning to descend into a depression cycle? Can I just push through this or do I need additional resources? I know that every day is different, and I should not expect rainbows and unicorns each day. Besides, where would I keep all the unicorns? I only have 5 acres of property. Of course, this would … [Read more...] about I Feel That I Am Missing Something Important
Why Must My Depression Decide What I Really Want or Need?
Photo by Alvaro Reyes on Unsplash If I think I want or need something, shouldn’t that be enough? Yet here I am negotiating with myself over what I want. Even after a lifetime of making my own choices, I am stuck between my ideas and depression. Now it is possible that my depression has allowed me a few “wins.” You know, just enough to keep me in the game. My … [Read more...] about Why Must My Depression Decide What I Really Want or Need?