Lately, I am amazed at how much I must live for. There have been times in my life where this wasn’t true. And times where all I could do was summon enough courage to get through the day. And times where I contemplated what it would be like to no longer have to push that same rock up the same hill. I find myself this morning thankful for time. Each time I am up against … [Read more...] about Even With My Depression, I Am Still Thankful
My Self-Care Helps Me and May Encourage Others
Self-care means different things to different people. Soaking in a bubble bath with candles all around the tub, while classical music plays softly in the background used to come to mind when I heard self-care. That thought used to make me cringe. Now I see the term as a catch-all for activities that I choose, which give me joy and relief from anything bothering me. How … [Read more...] about My Self-Care Helps Me and May Encourage Others
Depression Has Left Me a “Deer in Headlights” Again
I want to decide, but I feel frozen instead. There are things I can do right now that would address getting out of bed in the morning. But somehow, all I can muster is my “being OK” act. My high-functioning depression kicks in when I must get out of bed. This morning is a perfect example. I had gone to bed just before 10 PM. Eight hours later would be 6 AM. At 6:30 AM, … [Read more...] about Depression Has Left Me a “Deer in Headlights” Again
Depression Was Happy That I Was Neglecting Self-Care
I just thought I was overly busy. But then, I noticed that each day was clipping along, and I was becoming a spectator. No longer was I seizing the moment, setting aside time for me, or even thinking about tomorrow. Events were driving me. Then I spoke with my therapist. “If you don’t put your own oxygen mask on first, how can you help others?” Once again, he saw that … [Read more...] about Depression Was Happy That I Was Neglecting Self-Care
Why Am I Exceeding the Speed Limit?
Over the past few weeks, I have not been able to slow down. As the days get shorter, I am almost frantic to get things accomplished. And the thought of self-care, of "me" time, makes me cringe. There is no way I can be available for me, there is too much to do. So now I am recognizing this as a clear sign I need to slow down. But knowing is different from doing. In … [Read more...] about Why Am I Exceeding the Speed Limit?