Photo by Amer Mughawish on Unsplash Lately, it seems like I am either gearing up for my depression to take over or I am coming down from my depression. I am all in or shrinking away. It seems like I am giving in to my depression, and yet I am going forward. Then I am catching myself in an unhelpful thinking style, just as I am trying to be better than my … [Read more...] about Here We Go Again, Is My Depression Ready?
Unhelpful thinking
Is My Depression Pulling a Deja Vou?
Photo by K. Mitch Hodge on Unsplash I feel like I’ve been here before. It’s the same impulsive “this time it will be different” kind of thoughts. Am I fooling myself that I have magically changed. That somehow, I can think like I have in the past. And at the same time expect a different outcome? What the heck am I thinking? Is it my depression that is doing this, or am … [Read more...] about Is My Depression Pulling a Deja Vou?
Should I Be Anxious About How I am Using My SAD Light?
Photo by Jez Timms on Unsplash For me and my depression, having a bright SAD light in the winter makes sense. But over the past couple of years, my intentions are better than my reality. When I am not in front of the SAD light, I can think about how effective it was the first year I used it. But sit at my desk, in my home office, and I cannot think to turn it on. And it … [Read more...] about Should I Be Anxious About How I am Using My SAD Light?
Can I stay Focused?
I’ve had four or five days of positiveness. I’m not sure that is a word, but it’s how I have been feeling. Even yesterday, at work, I had the feeling that everything was going to work out. What I am thinking is that I will be able to realize my plans, and live a balanced life with my depression. The four weeks leading up to our trip to Peru did not feel like that. In … [Read more...] about Can I stay Focused?
Shouldn’t I be Excited About Traveling to Peru? (Part 1 & 2)
PART 1 My traveling companions sure are. I’m just going through the motions hoping that I will “snap out of it.” But sadly, I have had very little success with that idea. The entire adventure includes a weekend in Cusco, Peru. Then 7 days trekking including 3 days on the actual Inca Trail. By the following Sunday, we will be at Machu Picchu. There will be a 2-hour … [Read more...] about Shouldn’t I be Excited About Traveling to Peru? (Part 1 & 2)